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Bianca ([personal profile] wormintheglass) wrote in [community profile] hadriel2016-04-01 09:11 pm

Reflect What You Are [video]

[It's not that Bianca hasn't been enjoying the party. She's been everywhere, but fleetingly: pouring drinks, drinking toasts, absorbing the ambience, drinking some more. She has made no effort to take centre stage - till now.

It's during the last days, when everyone is feeling the worse for wear and the riotousness has died down some, that Bianca appears on the network.

She is not on a stage, not using one of the karaoke machines. She's in her house, the lights low, and one of her pet hyenas props her back up while the other acts as a footrest. She has an open bottle of tequila in one hand, and the carcasses of several empties lie around her. When she stares into the video feed, the unfocused look in her eyes suggests that standing up might currently be beyond her power. Her mirror lies on her lap.

Instead of speaking, Bianca starts to sing. Her voice is deep, powerful and true, and she doesn't speak until the song is finished.]


My cavemates. My friends. I fell here from a great ship between the stars, one just as inescapable and dark as these tunnels, just as full of monsters.

It had its own mirror, its own equal and opposing force. I shall not bore you with the tale of the two ships' struggle for dominance, of how I changed sides and fought at my own side for love and redemption.

[She says these words with derisive emphasis, and then smiles.]

I was sure I would die. What does one do, after one's great heroic sacrifice is rejected? After one wakes from the final battlefield to find oneself on another battlefield, ridden by yet more gods and monsters?

[She answers her own question by raising her bottle shakily to take another deep swallow.]

I am Bianca. Tell me, my children, where did you arrive here from? Where is your home?
circumitus: You can pick it up if you come down with ID... (i do believe we have a fire lady)

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[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-01 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rey has always liked music. From the day of her creation, it's had a calming quality about it. With no radio beyond her music player with an unsavory variety of the same songs, she more than welcomes the tunes coming from her communicator.

[There is silence following, after hearing what Bianca has to say in the wake of her song. It's a revelation that demands some thought before an answer can form itself.]


Was supposed to die as well, but that choice was taken away -- repeatedly. Was angry about it at first. Not so certain how to feel about it now.

Haven't yet figured out what one is supposed to do about it yet.
circumitus: She was stuck there, we simply exchanged rides. (it's not like i paid for sex)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-01 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Hope in this life isn't exactly an abundant commodity back home.

[Aren't these two just little rays of sunshine.]

Chose to die so not to be made into someone else's tool. Did not wish to live solely because one man -- a man who thought himself to be doing a good "favor" -- wills it.
circumitus: even drones can fly away.... the queen is their slave... (chill out big head)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-01 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Sounds like you're not much of a believer in what people have told you, yourself.

[Not that Rey blames her.]

Take it that something went against your nature?
circumitus: - XOXO dad (time to smoke my breakfast)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-02 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
Wouldn't necessarily put it like that, but hope isn't for everyone.

[Too bad it's supposed to be a product of this place for one of their hosts. Sorry, Hope.

[There is a thoughtful silence on her end, but no judgment. Rey would be a hypocrite if she were to judge anyone.]


...Was this is a "heroic sacrifice"? [Just going by her original message, and trying to piece things together.]
circumitus: We know how you feel. (kid you're lost in the wheel)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-03 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
Well, that's how the song goes -- you always hurt the ones you love.

[Rey herself of guilty of that, though perhaps not to the same extent as Bianca has in terms of leaving them behind. That's something she's actually trying to avoid, back home.]
circumitus: Otherwise you'd be a dad by now. (thank god you're gay)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-04 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
You're not alone in that.

[Bianca, you sound like Hope's best friend. Not.]

Is that what your mirror was showing you?
circumitus: 'Cause it makes him feel like a fish. (says he likes to get high and swim)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-04 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Same, more or less. [Rey's own mirror had shown herself being forgiven for something she's long since deemed to be unforgivable, and she refuse to buy into such a lie.]

Have to say, would rather deal with the other horrors of this place than... whatever it is those mirrors were intended to inspire.

[Because hope certainly wasn't one of them. Rey feels more like she was just being slapped in the face.]
circumitus: I ate an entire bag of starburst jelly beans today. and a plan B. All around think I hit all my nutrients. (food confession)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-06 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Figured as such.

[Sigh.]

My mirror showed something similar. Something impossible. Wanted to break it, but wasn't able to. Did you have that same problem?
circumitus: Legit 2 miles, and purchased 7 half gallons. One for each of us. Intense. (we walked 2 miles)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-12 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
So you still have it, even now?

[It would surprise her if Bianca kept it.]

That right? Never did sit well with tequila.
circumitus: Fuck morning drills. Fuck early work. Fuck anything in the morning that doesn't involve sleeping, sex or bacon. (first time i'm happy that i snore)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-15 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Mm. Suppose that sentiment is shared.

[Considering Rey's mirror remains tucked away in her apartment as well, unbroken.]

Try not to make a habit of drinking alone anymore. Incidents tend to happen when drinking alone. [Translation: Yes please.]
circumitus: Insert Warmer song lyrics here. (good lord knows that i'm greedy)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-15 09:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Well. Hard to decline an offer like that.
circumitus: We know how you feel. (kid you're lost in the wheel)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-04-29 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
[Rey knows how to get there well enough. After all, she's been there before.]

Noted. See you soon, then.