ushahin: (Madness)
Ushahin Dreamspinner ([personal profile] ushahin) wrote in [community profile] hadriel2016-12-02 12:50 am

I'm Just A Soul Whose Intentions Are Good | Video| OTA

[The first thing is that the phone has been propped between two branches on a tree in the orchard. Ushahin needs both hands for the task at hand. He's trying to peel a piece of fruit that has a bright purple skin on it. The problem is that if he tries to use his good hand to peel, his bad one can't hold onto it firmly enough, so it falls. If he tries to use his bad hand to peel while his good hand holds, his crippled fingers don't have enough force to break the skin. He'll be trying both methods alternately as he speaks in his usual soft tone.]

I was thinking tonight. A dangerous pastime, to be certain, but what I was thinking was this. How many of us who have been brought here are good? [He pauses, trying to get his nails under the skin, and he fails.]

I would ask how many of you here think you are a good person but-- [And there goes the fruit again, falling out of his bad left hand. He sighs and picks it back up.] --I don't think many of us have that high of a opinion of ourselves. I know I don't. [He's shattered too many minds and killed far too many people to think he's still got a soul anywhere close to being pure.]

So I will ask this. How many of you think those who are here with you are good people? Your family and friends, how many of them are good souls? [The fruit slips from his grasp once again.]

Damn. [He's given up trying to do this the nice, neat way. He ends the video by using his good hand for support, then biting down into the peel, and using his teeth to tear it partially off. It's not the most dignified method of being able to peel the fruit, but at this point, he's too stubborn to give up.]
circumitus: (goddammit you're a loose cannon)

[voice]

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-02 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
It's all subjective, really. Whatever one person thinks makes someone "good" is going to be different from what another person believes that word to mean.

For instance, this place supposedly brings in those who are "evil" or "chaotic" -- yet there are many here who do not apply to either of those. From our own narrowed opinions, that is.

[Like Rey would think of Nick and Firo and Glacius to be good. Even Muscovy, and a few others. They're hardly perfect, but she is always willing to overlook the flaws and focus on the good as opposed to the bad.]
circumitus: Because you're marine grade... You rascal. (you need 400 proof or marine proof)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-03 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
Think there is goodness in those that try to help others who can't always help themselves -- and there is a fair number of those here who at least try.

[The Guard, for instance. One can't help but admire the amount of effort that Maketh puts in to looking out for everyone.]
circumitus: (503): forewarning i'll probably have done those drugs with you (i wanna bring you to show and tell)

1/2

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-03 04:20 am (UTC)(link)
Same.

[And at first, it seems as if she is about to leave it at that.]
circumitus: She was stuck there, we simply exchanged rides. (it's not like i paid for sex)

[private|voice]

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-03 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
About the last time we spoke... [She hesitates, biting the inside of her cheek before she continues.] Well, you talked to "her".

[Stone. Someone who Rey would arguably consider to be a better fragment than most of her facets.]
circumitus: Because you're marine grade... You rascal. (you need 400 proof or marine proof)

[private|voice]

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-03 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Of course. Many of us weren't.

[Not just Rey, but Nick as well, among a few others she had bumped into during that time. Confusion's arrival had come with various unfortunate side effects, it seems -- including Confusion herself.]

Understood. You wouldn't be the first to share that sentiment. Can't say it's all thrilling to be followed by it here, though.

[There are some who revel in being feared, and the Salamander is certainly one of those. But the Rey she is now?

[Not so much.]
circumitus: I have big plans. I'm learning spanish this month. (i need an office)

Re: [private|voice]

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-04 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
Um, thanks.

[Maybe. Sort of. A little.

[Well, it isn't like she tries to be scary. With a face like hers, it just usually goes without saying.]


Am trying... not to be that thing that you saw. Not again. Sometimes, it's hard, especially in this place. [Such as when Rage meddled with their emotions and nearly made her kill a teenager. It isn't her fondest memory here in the least.]
circumitus: (503): forewarning i'll probably have done those drugs with you (i wanna bring you to show and tell)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-06 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
Am better than "her". [The Salamander, she means.] Or one could argue, anyway.

[Nick probably would. So would Firo and Muscovy.

[And her brother.

[Whether or not she believes any of them doesn't really matter, does it? It isn't about her.]
circumitus: She was stuck there, we simply exchanged rides. (it's not like i paid for sex)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-07 03:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[No offense is taken, at least.]

You'd be surprised. Here, a lot of things change.
circumitus: ...and then i realized im still drunk. (thinking 'wow glad i'm not hungover')

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-08 02:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, didn't know you before. Don't really know you that well now.

But you don't seem that bad.

[Not that Rey has enough to go on other than assumptions.]
circumitus: We know how you feel. (kid you're lost in the wheel)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-13 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe. Or maybe they're sorely lacking in judgment.

[She shrugs to herself.]

Guess it doesn't matter.
circumitus: its people like u that make people like me go to rehab. he has a lazy eye for christ sakes. (your girlfriend is a south jersey whore)

[personal profile] circumitus 2016-12-16 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe. But some people can be biased with their opinions.

[It's easy for Nick to hold her in high esteem because of their relationship. A lot of people who know Rey for her actions, however, would think differently.]