[she looks like she's bracing herself for condemnation]

It's not that. Not only that.

As long as I can remember, I was trained. In politics, negotiation, everything I needed to be queen. But it wasn't just that. I was taught seduction. How to tell what kind of woman a man wanted and the become that woman. Because of those lessons, I felt. . . entitled to be the queen.

I regret how far I went. But I can't regret those lessons because they made me the person I am.