[ Castiel shook his head, and lowered his cards into his lap, so that he could pull at his sleeves instead, folding them across in front of himself and digging himself into them deeply, almost trying to hide. ]

I was afraid. I think... I think I knew that you weren't going to let them stay dead. I thought sending you there was the only way to stop you.

But it's not what I want. It's not how I feel. I would never... [ He grimaced. ] I alone saw what that place did to you.