I'm going to say this one more fucking time, and if you still can't get it through your thick skull, I'm hanging up, because I have precisely zero interest in endlessly repeating myself. I have given this situation exactly as much thought as necessary. Thinking is what I do - it's what I spent my entire childhood in training for, and it's what I've done every day of my life since - thinking, assessing, making decisions. Don't assume you know anything about me, or what my thought processes are like.