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[iustitiae]

fuck.

[he kind of considers just leaving that but, as a afterthought tacks on:]

look, if anyone wants to ask the real me about anything happened, i'm here now.

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[64th]

can I come over?

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[outstandingbalance]

You okay?

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[iustitiae]

yeah, if you want

[iustitiae]

not really, no

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[hasitsthorns]

[ Though she knows Connor primarily through shitposting, this is still a little concerning. It's also something to focus on besides herself because, y'know, everyone in the cave is so good at coping with trauma. ]

'fuck' is an understatement
what the absolute fuck
what the ever loving fuck

and even though I think I know the answer
you gonna be alright, dude?

[outstandingbalance]

Fair enough. Not really a surprise.

You alive?

[iustitiae]

I am now.

You were right, to be worried.

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[iustitiae]

i don't really have much of an option

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[64th]

I think we could both use some company.

I'll feel better when I see the real you.

[outstandingbalance]

You know about that? Well, I wish I weren't.

[iustitiae]

yeah i remember everything he did
i guess it's like a last fuck you from whichever gods started this
great, right?

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[iustitiae]

all in one piece and everything
i'll be here

[outstandingbalance]

That's some souvenir.

Want to talk about it? Or drink and not talk about it

[iustitiae]

i don't know

it feels like i should talk about it

[outstandingbalance]

If you're interested, I can be remarkably nonjudgmental.

[64th]

on my way

[ She arrives quickly and when Connor answers the door she wraps her arms around him in a warm hug. it's a relief to physically see that he's okay. to know that he's himself again. ] I'd say you look good but you kind of look like crap.

No one blames you for anything that happened. We're all responsible for some bad shit.

[iustitiae]

[connor's happy for the hung, too. it's a relief just to know he's still allowed hugs from people his double had tried so hard to push away.]

You could at least lie and tell me that I'm pretty when I cry.

[he leads her inside, over to sit on the couch at least. he hears what she says, about being responsible for bad things, but it's hard to process. the worst part of all is that for all his double might have been awful, what he said was all versions of the truth. not connor's version, maybe, but a version nonetheless.]

[iustitiae]

you're not curious?

[outstandingbalance]

Less than you might think.

But I don't mind hearing you out either.

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[hasitsthorns]

well i'd argue that it's totally okay to not be alright but
then i'd be a huge hypocrite

[ What else is new. ]

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[fourthsaken]

you're back?

[64th]

You're the prettiest crier in this room. [ is that because Cashmere isn't crying or because she's an ugly crier? she'll let Connor decide on his own.

she settles on the couch, slipping her shoes off to curl her feet up underneath her. ]

Sorry we didn't figure out what was going on earlier. We just thought - we didn't know what to think. Just that you were acting weird.

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[therewillbeorder]

So I assume it was your double I encountered then.

[iustitiae]

i'm a little surprised

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[iustitiae]

yeah i know how that is