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[morphinum]

GET THESE BUGS OUT OF MY APARTMENT




i did not leave the fucking woodland fairy realm for more insects

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[barbarus]

[ Half the town was trying to kill the other half last week, and this is what's angered this person? ]

they are just fireflies what is the matter?

they won't harm you.

[morphinum]

[ still wasn't as bad as the hunger games. ]

theyre vermin and i bet you fifty bucks im gonna start feeling some fucked up emotions

[barbarus]

[ Neither are fireflies, in fairness. ]

is there a time in this city when we are not forced into feeling fucked up emotions?

there's worse we could deal with than those.

[morphinum]

[ better the devil you know than the fireflies you don't. ]

my point exactly. and im sick of it and now its emotions and bugs i only have so much patience for this bullshit

its not the fucked up that bothers me. im 20 different kinds of fucked up and proud. its that we dont get a say in the matter. no hope of resistance peaceful or otherwise

thats whats fucked up

[barbarus]

so you'll respond by getting angry about it? that could be exactly what they want

we don't need to make it easy for them.

[morphinum]

it isnt. this is my usual anger. unhealthy misdirected fury is my thing dont knock it till you try it

if i started getting all happy and gushy then we'd have a problem

[ she doesn't exactly feel...happy, but the pleasantness unnerves her. ]

[barbarus]

this whole place has been feeding on rage for the last week or more.

happiness would not be so terrible. and fury is better when it's directed, preferably at them. and not their fireflies.

[morphinum]

exactly. these assholes take turns. rage just went so now i guess its time for hope or happiness or hangovers or whatever their name is

i am an equal opportunity fury directer and the gods have a lot of mine. now its the fireflies turn

[ Johanna directed her fury against some very powerful people once and. It didn't go well. She's trying to respect the line between civil disobedience and things that get people tortured. ]

[barbarus]

so you will fuel rage again instead of hope, or desire, or whichever of them has done this, and one way or the other, one of them still gets what they want.

[ He would rather give none of them anything. But when it comes to resisting, happiness is easier for Damen than anger. The fireflies just done seem as much of a threat to him. Them, he can ignore.

Or so he thinks. ]

[morphinum]

i might be fueling rage but im doing it on my terms. not because ive been doped on fireflies or mirrors or being stuck in the ground for days.

i could care less if the gods have power. power exists and guess what buddy most people dont get to have it. all i want is my goddamn autonomy. freedom and all that

[barbarus]

we are in their prison. it is a large prison but it is still a prison

there is no freedom here. whether you pretend it or not. your rage is useless without direction.

[ As is any rage, and honestly, Damen is something of an expert. He has had one too many lessons in who holds power over him of late. ]

[morphinum]

ive been in worse prisons

[ And they weren't even some kind of metaphor. This place reminds Johanna more of Thirteen than the Capitol, an underground bunker ruled by a woman with absolute authority. Prison, to Johanna, is synonymous with torture, and the torture she's encountered just hasn't been that bad for her. ]

my rage is who i am. give that up and im giving up even more freedom.

[barbarus]

so have i. and better ones.

[ Though, really perspective was what mattered there. This place would fool you into thinking it’s comfortable, but the entire place is enclosed. Take away its trimmings, and this is little more than a hole in the ground. ]

you aren’t wrong, if all you want to do is survive. if you want to make a difference, make gains, escape some day, we have to do better than that.

[morphinum]

i tried making a difference and it fucking sucked. i might be excessively """"""emotional""""" but im not stupid. not gonna pull the same shit again

[barbarus]

[ He’s thinking, ‘it can’t be that bad’. Damen’s view of ‘not that bad’ wouldn’t necessarily match other people’s, though. ]

what happened when you tried?

[morphinum]

the government slaughtered all my loved ones and took me prisoner after throwing me into gladiator match 2.0

[barbarus]

[ ...on the other hand. ]

then i am sorry for your loss

but it is a reason to keep fighting, not a reason to stop
stand down and those who hurt you will win. including these gods here.

[morphinum]

who ever said i stopped fighting

im not charging into some stupid rebellion again but honestly if you cant tell that i dont let people fuck with me then you're dumber than i thought

[barbarus]

i think these gods are fucking with all of us, and you are taking your rage out on the wrong thing

but by all means

tell me im wrong.

[morphinum]

you're not. im just not repeating any mistakes this time.

[barbarus]

i wish you luck in removing the happiness from your apartment

[morphinum]

thanks im sure ill succeed