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Heya, guys. I'm sure a few of you um, already know what I'm gonna say.

[Chris definitely doesn't look as cheery as usual, but also not terribly upset; mostly he just seems a little drained, but otherwise calm enough.]

Em's uh... Emily's gone. So I guess I'm gonna have to take over for her in the 'telling people like it is' department, and I'd add like, the 'being right' one but I'm already right at least as often as she is. However, I'm totally not doing the sewing or getting up early to run the coffee cart parts. Gonna need other people to step in on those.

[And okay, joking aside, he takes a deep breath and continues.]

I know um, I know a lot of people here knew her, but not necessarily much about uh... What we're going back to, at home, since I don't think she talked about it much. So if anyone has any questions about that, I can probably answer, and hopefully that'll make things... You know. A little easier?

[Worrying about what people are returning to is usually the hardest part on him, when someone leaves, after all. Oh, and one more thing--]

Wolfie's still here, by the way. So no one freak if you see him with me; as Em always said, he only bites if you're an asshole.

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The importance of being no one to the majority but something to a small but powerful front. [ In part, that was her: it was Alessa's doppelganger that started it, that convinced her to bring all of them into her worst possible dreams, but it was still her.

All of it's her now. ]

You probably didn't ask for the bs you went through, either, Chris. We're just... A friend of mine tells me we have no luck but I feel it's just bad.

That's, you know, totally possible.

[He's not necessarily going to argue; sometimes he feels like he and his friends had the worst luck ever, but sometimes--]

I um... I kind of like to think of it as the opposite, though. When I can delude myself into it, anyway.

[It's a joke, but he also means it.]

The shit we dealt with could've um, had a totally different end result. We could all have died so many times; there could be none of us left, instead of five for sure who got out and maybe two more. So maybe instead of having the bad luck to get into that situation in the first place, we had the good luck to get out of it.

[It sounds stupid, he's sure, but he likes looking at it that way instead of feeling like the universe--or whatever else--hates him and his friends.]

[ She listens quietly. She can see where he's coming from but, at least for her, she didn't have the good luck to get out of it. And, truthfully, neither did Chris or his friends considering where they are. ]

You're too optimistic.

I prefer to think I'm the right amount of optimistic, but that uh... Might be kind of optimistic in itself.

[It's half a joke; he'd rather be too optimistic than anything else--aside from realistic, but he thinks those things can exist together--anyway.]

I think being realistic is the best choice if you ask me.

Well, yeah, but I'm not sure realistic and optimistic are always, you know. Mutually exclusive.

Agree to disagree.

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