hadriel | ✫ 002 [text] thank you, i'll say goodbye soon

[And as with all events, everything ends. Alphys wakes back up in the house underground, and everything from the last 10 days is revealed to be a fake. She sighs as she pulls herself out of bed, ready to get back to some sense of normalcy.

It takes her a few hours to figure out anything’s wrong, because it’s not abnormal for Sans to sleep too long, or not come out of his room-- well, Papryus’, but it’s for the both of them now-- until late or necessary. She makes something to eat, settles in to read and relax, and thinks nothing of it until she tries to text him later and nothing comes up.

Alphys scans the contact list once, twice, and climbs off the shared couch, soul feeling tight in her chest as she approaches his room. She knocks, waiting a minute for his answer, because he must just be asleep, before knocking again, putting too much of her weight on the handle when the door finally swings to nothingness.

She spends the next hour tearing through the apartment, piece by piece, unwilling to believe this is happening, knowing what she knows about where he’s going... or, well, a lack thereof. It feels wrong for her to be in here, pawing through everything in a desperate hope, but she knows what this means. That one day someone can be here and the next simply be gone.

The house is doubly quiet, she finds in horror, the more she searches, the more she looks. Four gone. Four of her closest friends. Four that just never came back from that lovely town of nowhere.]

[She can’t bear to put herself on video for this, not when she’s crying, not when she can barely speak. So she types instead, hands shaking heavily, having found a batch of letters and items she feels important to be delivered.]

hhey so
for anyone who knknew sans
hes nnot here anymore
he went
he went away
napstablook too
if people are looking forthem

sans uhm
... he left a bunch of gifts for people with
they look like ggoodbye letters
i can check if you think he mightve left onef or--
theres too ma ny to list
im sorry

[She thinks about ending it there, and then adds one last addendum.]

i know theres a lot of people here who didnt like him and. im sure there was reasons for you tto not to get along
but please dont i
i dont want to know
not rightnnow

please

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thanks.
i just got
surprised, is all.
two more are gone too.

i dont usually see so many leaving like this

It's rare to have so many people leave at once. But I don't think anyone's ever been able to predict how departures work. It makes things really difficult.

yeah its
pretty random i guess
and i guess it makes sense since it was right after that big world event and whatever
i just
i wish it wasnt all at once
you know?

Yeah.

Do you still have friends here?

i mean
ive been here long enough that i know people in the city
not from my world
but its just
me and two others from my home now
and one of thems not really a friend
they dont like me very much
so just one i guess but he hasnt been around lately

I only have one friend left, too.

It does get easier. Probably faster if you're good at talking to people, but I never have been. Still. There's some decent people here.

im sorry.
i mean for everything and
i do have friends here i guess
or at least people who are nice
theres a lot of people here who are pretty nice

i just dont want to burden them
i didnt mean to make all of this so public i just
he wrote these notes
i wanted to make sure people had them

I don't think you need to apologize. You're allowed to be sad, especially when one of your friends leaves. If anyone doesn't like that, it's their problem, not yours.

i guess i just
dont want to be a problem you know?
its my emotions not theirs
i dont want to feel like
im forcing anyone to comfort me
or get involved in my emotional problems
i should keep it to myself

I know how that is.

There are a lot of people who like hearing about that kind of thing, though. Who like comforting people. I wouldn't worry too much.

['I wouldn't worry too much', hahaha, as if worrying isn't practically her entire life.]

ill uh
try to keep that in mind i guess
kinda ahrd to ask someone if they're ok with you being sad when youre mid-breakdown but isnt that just how it is lmao
but uhm
thank you

If they don't walk away, you can probably assume they're ok with it.

Take care of yourself, all right?

heh
okay
thank you

[She thinks about saying she'll do it for him, but that feels too... close, for the little he knows about her.]

ill do my best