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[The video opens up on the library and someone is clearly adjusting the camera: she's not that good with technology and she just failed to fix everything before starting... but it doesn't matter does it? The green haired woman trots in the middle of the screen and waves to the wall behind the camera (Gods, technology makes her feel like an idiot every time) before clearing her throat and holding up a book that has probably seen better days: the cover is covered in mold, the book itself is still dripping water, not exactly the best sight.]

Greetings, citizens of the underworld! I'm Rydia and I'm speaking to you all from our... lovely library. If you've been here before you probably know this is the state of most books in this place, others are written in some gibberish language no one managed to translate so far- at least as far as I know- and the rest is either burnt or talks about the most mundane things I've ever seen. I mean, if the census of all cats in Kanzas 1850-1860 -now with names- is your cup of tea I'm not going to judge but... definitely not mine

[And, without too many compliments she dumps the old tome she was holding on the left] But- in this sea of disappointment there is a light... [Rydia holds up a tome, like trying to build excitement over such a boring thing, and slowly opens it revealing white pages.] some of them are blank.

Now, I'm not saying books are the most exciting thing one can work with but it's something we can have here to pass the most boring days between one of the supposed Gods [Much sarcasm here] decides to play a prank on us. How? We can write books ourselves.

We all come from different places, have different backgrounds and different cultures, this would be a wonderful way to share pas of what who we are with the others. And we can create cheap and easy entertainment for everyone. It's not necessary being real writers and if you don't know how to... you could just come here, I volunteer in taking care of the writing part of it. I... oh, and if you have issues reading I will be glad to help with that too, of course!

[She's starting to feel really awkward talking like this...]

That's all, I think. Let me know if anyone would be intersted in contribuiting, I will try to write something myself... Thanks for listening, have a good day!

[Have a somehow embarassed wave... and look her get up, drop her 'transmitting device' on the floor and swear (At least for a Feymarchian, it's something about 'Leviathan's balls') before finally being able to turn it off.]

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I... it must have been hard. I don't think how I'd react if I had to feel so lost.... without roots, withou origins. I'm glad here we still have ourselves and a way to preserve who we are- we should be happy about it, mh? Try to leave the hard times behind, enjo what you have here!

[Yes, they did and nothing can change that. And Gods, if she could read his mind Rydia'd definitely slap him, Kain and his 'I will remember all the good things I lost' attitude.]

Good. What happened gave me a much needed prospective on human mentality... and I grew respect for housewives, if I was confined in a house with the only worries of keeping everything clean, cooking and watching after the kids I'd probably go insane. I mean, there was costantly a lot to do but at the same time it's not how I'd like to keep myself busy. [And she's almost tempted to drop it there and leave him alone, but... ] Marital life is funnier than expected, thought, there's a lot more physical exercize involved than I expected!

It didn't seem so bad, sometimes. We didn't know what we were missing, after all. It kept us focused on the battle at hand. But... at times... I could tell that something was off. That there was more that I should have known...

[She's right, though, it's all in the past, and he needs to move on if he can. But sometimes it's hard to shake the way he'd become during that war.]

I didn't realize how much pressure would be involved, in raising kids. Nor how much I would still be trying to... to follow in my father's footsteps in a way, even then. But I'm glad we're not stuck in that life, you as a housewife and me working a job I didn't like, just to support us. [On the other hand, it had still been nice, having that family of theirs, having a wife who loved him, and the kids who might even look up to him... ok, maybe not as teenagers, but perhaps one day they might have.] Though in ways it wasn't so... Wait, you're not referring to... to... Rydia!

[He is reddening so much about that 'physical exercise' comment.]

I can only imagine that- and I'm glad I didn't experience it. Sorry you all had to deal with it, Kain. But as I said, let's try to keep our mind focused on what we have here...

[She taps her chin, thinking for a moment about their family situation]

Well, I agree on how difficult it felt having kids, still I think I'd like to have my own family at some point. Anyway I agree, I don't think I'd feel well as housewife in an human house, nor I would feel complete in having my partner being the only person who's supposed to bring home what we need to live. It's not necessarily a bad life, just a different one. [she pauses for a moment] About your father... do you want to talk about it?

[But no, she already sent her provokative joke forward so-] What? You loved when I made innuendos last week!

I'm also glad that you were spared from that experience. It's bad enough that Cecil had to be there and go through it, and Golbez... well... he was there as well, forced to fight against us yet again. It's good to be free of the endless fighting, even knowing what it cost.

[It had meant his death, and the deaths of the others who'd fallen with him too. But he's at least alive here, now.]

I haven't given that much thought. The domestic life isn't one I would choose for myself... not the way we were experiencing, anyway. [He'd never choose to have an office job or the overall mundane existence it had seemed like. As for a family... well... he's young yet. Too young to really think about settling down.] What... what about my father?

[He clearly does need to talk about it, though he's reluctant as usual. Still, maybe with Rydia... maybe that would be ok.]

Well, we were married at the time, so things were... different. [It had felt kind of nice, though, hadn't it? Having someone like that to be with, to flirt and joke and enjoy her company... Sigh.]

It must have been rough but I'm sure they're back home and they're waiting for us. Bad things happen, you escaped this war, now let's escape this place.

[She finds it a bit hard to feel bad for Golbez, to be honest, but Rydia is perfectly aware of how unfair that is.]

I suppose children force you to settle down for a while. I still think I'd like to have some, not necessarily with an husband at my side. [She may be older and- she is definitely more oriented toward kids than him.] Imagine raising them in the Feymarch, I'd teach them how to hunt, how to fight and they'd learn with e how to summon eidolons. Eh... that sounds fun! [Someday Cuore will be part of her life, but the summoner can't know that.] Anyway, your father... you're the one who seemed obsessed about it and the family name last week and even now you mentioned him. [She pauses, looking at him and sighing] If you need to talk I'm here to listen, okay?

How so? [Now, please pardon her incredibly smug grin.] If I remember correctly I had my first kid way before we signed that piece of paper.

Well... you're not wrong. During that gods' war, we were able to find a... a loophole of a sort to exploit. We had thought the cycles of battles might never end, but we found that way out. We'll just have to do the same for this place, somehow.

[It's a different world with different gods and their own rules, but surely they can manage something. They just have to keep their wits about them, keep searching for answers.]

Children also carry on your family's legacy, which I know is important... I must carry on the Highwind name someday. [Not anytime soon, of course, but he knows what's expected of him.] I'm not too certain I ever want to settle down, though. I'm a warrior above all else, and always will be. But... I think it's good that you know how you'd want to raise any kids. They'd be a lot like you, that way.

[He pauses. His daddy issues are a lot to get into, but he has an opportunity, and this soon after the whole 'family' mess... he's of a mind to discuss it. For now.] My family have been dragoons for centuries. They were even involved in founding the order, so dragooning is in my blood. It's an important part of my heritage. My father... He was a good man. Brave, stern and one of the best commanders the dragoons ever had. It's always been my dream to follow in his footsteps, and to be as good as he was... and to someday even surpass him. But I fear I've only been a disappointment so far.

I... but we...[Oh, he's blushing hard.] We were more or less close enough to married at that time, even if it was before it became official.

And we will find one here too- and go home. We will be fine, I promise, and once we return we can go back to our friends.

[It's kind of implied she expects him to return to Baron but- hey, she's not the person directly involved with that, right?]

I... I think it's a good plan for your future, Kain. To carry on your blood and name. [She's not entirely sure on how much she wants her blood to carry on, as far as Rydia knows summoner blood gets watered down when it's mixed with human genes, it's probably one of the few memories she has about her childhood education: humans are bad for you, don't leave the village ever. now, while's the summoner is way past that- does she even know any other surviving summoner?] You made a good dad, even if we were all... confused in the past few days. Someday, when you'll be able to look past Rosa [Tact, what is it?] You will make someone really happy. And I think. I don't think anyone would be happy to settle down as we did in that other life, there's so much more to do.

[Oh gods, he's talking, And if Kain is opening up, sh will only listen in silence trying to get everything she can from the conversation. So... that is what he worries about?] I see... [She pauses, studying him in silence for a minute.] Kain? Why do you think you disappointed him?

Well, too bad... I wanted to invite you over for some fun time but if being in a proper relationship and signing a paper is so important I will just look elsewhere [Okay... okay, she took a real liking in this 'teasing kain' thing.] I'm sorry, it's just, I shouldn't try to make you uncomfortable but... your reasonings may make perfect sense between your people but in my world they're just a tiny bit ridicolous.

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Yes... someday we'll return to our home world. We'll make it happen. We must.

[He interprets it as getting home so he can go back to that mountain, of course.]

I want to try, carrying on that legacy, as best as I can. If I eventually- Rydia! Don't... don't mention that. [Oh god, why did she bring up Rosa!? It's bad enough having his little secret be well known, but to have Rydia mention it so casually, like that, is just too much for him. He sighs. But she's right, as hard as it is for him to admit it. He needs to move on, one day.]

I've disgraced my family name... My actions as a traitor... everything I did... I know I've disappointed my father because of all of that. I should have been stronger. Instead, I succumbed in the worst possible way... I sometimes don't think I deserve my family name anymore... [He's never brought up this aspect much with anyone else, really... the whole mind control and betrayal situation is complicated in many ways, though.]

Well... that relationship part is especially important. Without any feelings or devotion to someone, it would be difficult to... to perform. [This kind of talk really just keeps making him very red-faced. He's not apt to discuss it much, let alone with a woman. Let alone with a woman he'd... behaved like a husband toward for a while.] Not that... not that it was so bad, though, at the time. Any man would be fortunate to be with you.

That's the positivity I want from you!

[She's gonna climb that mountain and kick him back to Baron- or at least she'll try, you know?]

Someday it will happen, believe in it. And I apologize, Kain, but I'm not forgetting the fact you just died for a shadow with her face... the sooner you move on, the better it'll be for you. I wouldn't be a good friend if I left you aline in your little bubble, don't you agree? [Yeah, she can be brutally direct now and then but- Rydia has all the good intentions, really.] Come on, you've been happy last week, even without her. Someday you will find the one.

[Here she frowns, listening in silence for a while: she never met Ricard so it's harder for her to have an idea of how the situation is. She crosses her arms, trying to find reassuring words, but how do families even work?] Even our kids were a mess- but have you ever wanted them to abandon home or their family? [No, that's probably not a good comparison.] I can't really talk for your father but if you need to talk abou him- I will listen. The only thing I can say is... if I was your mother I'd be proud to see you work so hard to fix your mistakes.

I see... you really are a romantic, aren't you? That's lovely. [There are other comments she could make but- enough teasing, right?] Oh, please, we were totally in love and one of us has such a high libido, of course that was awesome. Treat whoever you'll end with the same way you treated me and she will be happy, trust me.

[Kain only hopes she's right about returning home. He's going to keep fighting, to keep trying to get back to that mountain... But... sometimes he has his doubts. He sighs.]

I'm sorry I let it go to that point. I know I was behaving foolishly, but... it was difficult to break from such thinking. [It was difficult because it was Rosa, and all of his normal behavior just goes away when it comes to her. Sigh. He knows he had made the wrong decision though, and it had cost him his life.] ...Well... I don't know. I suppose at the time, I was happy. I didn't have any memory of home or any of that. In a way, it seemed I was better off, that week. [Even if that week had been a lie. A rather happy lie, but still... not reality at all.]

You would be? [It actually does mean a lot, coming from her, and he's glad for the reassurance. Rydia can be blunt and sometimes annoying to deal with... but she's also the most direct, honest person he knows. She won't hold back something if she truly believes it.] Thank you. That's... good to hear. I only hope my father would feel the same way. He was a good man, the greatest dragoon there ever was. I only hope I can follow in his footsteps...

I... [Blushing, blushing, blushing. He's definitely more of a romantic than he tends to let on.] I'll have to... keep that in mind. If such a day ever comes, and such a person ever appears. [Maybe this will help him move on a little from Rosa, after all. Who knows? He'd at least learned that love with someone else was completely possible. And... that he could really enjoy it too.]

[Has she ever been wrong about anything? O-of course, countless times, but that's behind the whole point!]

I know, I can imagine that, but I'm still angry with you about that because it's so... wrong. And I think this place had us married because back then I was pretty adamant in not speaking with you ever again. And I can be quite stubborn, you know? [At least now her angriness wore off- she still seems bitter about it, thought.] And doesn't that tell you anything? You can't have that With Rosa but I bet there are plenty of women who'd love to give you a chance in Baron. I mean, look at you, your legs are amazing! And it's not that bad talking with you. [have a wink. it was meant as complment, really.]

I would. [She smiles in his direction.] We all make mistakes, no matters what, and it takes courage to admit it- and try to change things. [Being annoying and blunt is her speciality, thank you so much!] He sounds like a great man, do you want to share more about him?

[Ignore her giggling, please, Rydia is far more amused than she should. Kain, you are... adorable.] Should I try to help you get a girlfriend? That could be funny... and I already learnt the basics last week, dead animals aren't considered the most romantic gift between your people.

Believe me, I try to avoid getting on the wrong side of your stubbornness if I can help it. I'm sorry, though. I was wrong, and that mistake cost me far too much... I'll try harder to listen to you, next time.

[Sometimes he just dismisses it as her being too emotional and impulsive... But, for once, he had been the one to fall to his emotions, while Rydia had remained strong. He almost admires her for that, in a way. Or maybe it's the recent events that have him thinking like that, who knows.] I... Well... thank you. For saying that, about my legs. [He reddens a bit, as always not entirely used to dealing with that sort of thing.] Maybe it was for the best that we... went through that whole family situation. It brought us together. [Perhaps a bit too close in some ways, but it doesn't bother him that much. He just hopes she's right, that he'll find someone, eventually.] I'll keep all of this in mind, as well. Believe me, I want to move on from... you know... but... it's not easy.

[Kain considers for a moment. He doesn't talk much about the details with others, especially not about the dragon he'd helped care for. It all pains him sometimes, even now. But he doesn't mind at the moment.] My father was the greatest dragoon I ever knew. He taught me everything... I had my first jump under his direction. We also shared a lot of time together with his dragon.

It's all right, though. You don't have to do that for my sake. I'm not even sure what I want... [A woman who's like Rosa? No, that would probably not be wise. But then what's his type, outside of that?]

Ah, aren't you a wise man? [Rydia offers a friendly grin, winking on the dragoon's direction.] And- listen. I don't have all answers, far from it, but I care about you. We have to go home together so... I promise I will try harder next time if a similar situations arises again.

[The most recent events certainly gave each other a larger prospective about the other but- she's not thinking about it too much, the summoner is all for keeping things simple.] Only saying the truth, you should show around those muscles more often. Not everything is going to attack, you, mh? [Rydia is aware of his attachment to the armor but it'd be nice to see him more often in casual clothes.] It certinly did. In a certain sense the whole city did- I used to be a bit intimidated by you but between fighting side to side, relaxing in the hot springs, massages and now last week I have to admit that feeling is definitely gone. [Here she pauses, not too sure on how to help him on that.] I don't have romantic experience to talk here so I don't know how to help you on this. Is there something you think I could do to help?

[Rydia crosses her arms assuming a more comfortable position while listening to him, it seems Kain was really close to him] That sounds beautiful, sharing time with a dragon... and your first jump too. It sounds like he really wanted to involve you in his life.

It wouldn't really bother me, you know? And- I don't know, what did you like about last week? It may be what you're looking for? [Romance is... an unknown territory]

Thank you, Rydia. I... believe it or not, I really do appreciate that. I've come to trust you, as a comrade. I'm sure it'll work out better, next time. Although I hope there's not a next time for such a situation.

[He'd rather take regular life or death struggles over any of that. Of course, the gods have other ideas about that, usually.]

I must be ready in case something happens, though. Around here, attacks are all too likely, at any time. But... well... perhaps I could try that, sometime. [He's not one to 'show off' in such a way, but it almost doesn't seem like a bad idea, the way that Rydia is suggesting it.] Hm... well... I'm glad I no longer intimidate you. [He normally prefers it that way, knowing that the armor makes him a very imposing figure. But maybe there are some people who he... really should let in closer. As for helping him with his romantic life... he's not even sure where to start yet.] But I'm not sure what may help. This whole thing is more difficult than it may seem.

[Kain nods, getting a wistful expression.] He did. He wanted me to carry on the family legacy... and it was everything I wanted, as well. It meant so much to me that he meant for me to become like him. He was a good man... still better than me, but perhaps one day I'll surpass him. Perhaps. [He has someone to look up to, anyway, footsteps to follow.]

I... I don't know. [It's a tough question for Kain, one which he hesitates and takes a while to answer.] Not that it was bad, in fact, it felt quite good, at the time. I liked that we were... so close. We were partners. A team. And... the playful ways that we behaved toward one another... that was nice as well. [He's awful at flirting but it seemed to be easier when it was a wife of many years.] The... physical comfort, too.

That's good. I mean, we watched everyone's back for so long during our journey I would be a bit disappointed if you told me you had no faith [Have a small chuckle, it seems this was a lame attempt as a joke.] I hope not to deal with anything similar ever again.

Kain, after any of the gods's jokes and the new arrivals there's usually a short amount of time when nothing relevant happens. What about trying a day without if after we get more people? I'm sure we can find you some good clothes. [She doesn't like the armor, big news, right? It's something Rydia always made clear with Cecil as well, metal isn't really huggable.] I don't know how to help either but let me know if you'll think about anything, okay? Also remember well be leave those people behind when we'll go back home so don't be afraid to eperiment, okay?

[She smiles in his direction] Well, did he save the world from impending doom? That's already something special you did more than him. Still, I think it's nice how you look up at him, it must be a nice memory.

You know, you could be playful with people even if they're not your wife. [The summoner winks in his direction] but.... yeah, I can see why you listed those things, they were pretty nice. We... have to find you an affectionate woman, it seems.

I'd hate to disappoint you. But I hope for the same. We have enough to deal with here, anyway.

You're really that serious about seeing me without armor. Hm... well... I could consider it. Perhaps. [He's perhaps a bit reluctant, but overall, he's not going to argue much. He almost... likes that she wants to see him that way. It's not a request he often gets from anyone.] I'll keep that in mind, as well.

Hm... I hadn't considered it like that. No, my father didn't save the world as we did... but nor did he fall to any inner darkness the way I did. He wasn't controlled. I often... I worry that part would disappoint him. [But he'd returned and fought at their side, hadn't he? He'd been just as important to Zeromus' defeat as the rest of them.]

...I guess so. I'm in no rush to find anyone, but... that whole experience... was pleasant. I wouldn't mind having something like it, someday. [He also understands that he doesn't have to be married to flirt as they did, but... well... the familiarity and long-term aspects of it all had been important to him. It had made him feel comfortable.]

Agreed... we'll see, let's try to be strong!

What can I say, I'm no huge fan of armors in general. They feel cold, unpleasant... [There's a small sigh, that's not the only point here. His armor makes him seem distant and unapprochable, at least at first, and in her opinion that doesn't certainly help his cause. It's so weird she cares so much but- that's what friends do, right?] I don't ask for more.

Oh sweet Leviathan, Kain, let it go. You made mistakes, you fixed them, you helped saving everyone, even if you disappointed your father for a while you turned into a real hero in the end and- again- I may know know anything about dragoon or human hystory but I don't think it's an accomplishment many can brag about. Be proud of yourself, you may not be your dad but- [wait, they already had a similar conversation didn't they? She finds waving a finger in his direction.] Oh, you know what? Hush you, we will get to the point where you actually appreciate yourself for who you are, may it be the last thing I do. And I have a question: why do you want to be better than him?

On that we both agree, it was pleasant and nice, and as I said more than once... I'm sure there's someone out there for you.

We'll need considerable strength to make it through this.

But... it's not as if... [He sighs. Not as if she's going to be getting as close to him as she did when they believed they were married. Not as if anyone wants to be with him in that way. Kain is sorrowful about all of that, but... well... that's how it's always been anyway, right? No need to bother her about his inner thoughts.] No... I suppose I understand. But I still feel best prepared to handle what this place throws at me, when I'm armored. I have to wear it when I'm on patrol at the very least.

[Letting go definitely isn't something Kain does easily. Rydia always seems to be so much better at that sort of thing.] I don't know that I deserve to claim the title of hero... perhaps the rest of you do. But I was actively opposing all of you for some time... I was a traitor... But I'm certainly trying to continue atoning for that.

Being myself... I don't know... [He doesn't know if he's good enough. All his life, though, he's tried to be someone else, or live up to their standards, whether it was his father... or even the darker influences of Golbez and Zemus controlling them both.] I... I've always wanted to surpass him. It'll make him proud. It'll make me feel that I've truly accomplished something great, to surpass one of the best dragoons who ever lived.

...I'm glad you have such confidence in there being someone out there. [He's still struggling with his feelings for Rosa, but being falsely married to Rydia has shown him how it could be with someone else. It's made him realize a few things he hadn't before.]

Pft, we've been through worse. And once we're back we'll laugh abut this and tell everyone about our wonderful adventures! Maybe we'll ever convince Edward to write a song about misterious other worlds!

[It's not as if...?] Kain, please don't foget you can speak freely with me [She'd love to be bothered, thought, considering it'd mean he's finally opening up with her. Rydia is aware she's not the easiest person to have around now and then, she has strong opinions and she doesn't take too well when people get themselves hurt but she cares.] I'm certainly not suggesting you to let your armor at home all the time, just asking you to leave it home, if you can, now and then when it's time to meet others. If... if anything attacks- I will protect you until you manage to go back to your armor!

[She had to learn how to let things behind, it was either that or dying. Now it comes almost natural...] Kain... Kain, we already had this discussion. If we are heroes, you're a hero too- ask anyone we know, I bet they would all agree with me.

People who like Kain Highwind like Kain Highwind, not 'his father's son'. You are Baron's dragoon commander, aren't you? Cecil and Rosa's best friend, Odin's precious one, Rydia and Edge's partner in the journey to the moon... that's what really matters. [And while she cannot understand why he wants to surpass his father...] How? How o you think you can prove to be the best dragoon?

Hush you, I know there's someone for everyone out there! I know you're physicaly fit, we just need to find someone who looks at you and- [There's a small pause here, Rydia doesn't seem to sure on how to proceed. The summoner was in love with him when she was his wife but her feelings didn't change too much when she returned herself- she still cared about him. Oh well...] think 'oh, wow, he's the one!'

First, we have to make it through this.... [He's never been good at optimism, unfortunately.] It'll be an... interesting story. Unbelievable in ways. I don't know if I'd want to include some of it.

But I like being able to protect myself. I'm a man, after all, I ought to be able to... [Typical Kain, of course, and his typical issues about being seen as tough and manly.] And anyway, it's not as if I have anyone who cares to be that close to me. I'd always assumed it was for the better, just to keep the armor on for that reason.

Well... I... Yes. I was their commander, and I didn't earn that rank simply because of my name. I had to prove myself. [He really needs to remember that fact more often. Her words also really strike him at the moment.] Am I really... all of those things to all of you? I don't know what to say... [It sure does mean a lot to him, though.] It means a lot to hear. I'm still trying to figure out what would make me truly the best dragoon. But I know I need to overcome my past, and my darkness to get there.

Hm... I hope you're right. It's hard to believe it could happen. [He pauses a moment, then looks her in the eye.] Or it was... until we were... together in the way we were. It showed me it was possible.

We will make it through this, just watch us! [Don't worry, she can be optimist for both...] Uh, don't worry, I won't tell Rosa how we spent our little special week [Or how he died, she's trying to let it go really, shes just... not too good at it.] but- think about all we've seen. Fake Gods, the Null that wants to destroy the, all those weird events- we could write a book!

... [Her expression changes in a blink from a smile to an irritated frown. Man, woman, the summoner doesn't care and she may take offense from this 'men are supposed to be able to do everything' because... well, Rydia still feels it's like saying women are expected not to be able to do certain things. The only reason she's not criticizing him is the fact she just told him he was suposed to speak his mind freely.] You can't know if you don't try something different. People won't try to hug you if they feel it will bother you, you know?

Good, keep that in mind- you are you, Kain, and you're worth a lot! [Everyone is for Rydia and she'll never get tired of repeating that to others.] Of course and- you should learn yo appreciate yourself more. On overcoming your darkness... I cannot help you much in that, just make sure you don't lose sight of the other important things in life.

Good! See? Something really good came out of this! And worry not, if you find no one I'll take you. [That's merely a joke- and a silly attempt to reassure him he'll not end up alone.] but before that- I will help you find love, that's what friends do, mh?

I appreciate that you won't tell Rosa... or anyone else, for that matter. They don't need to know. [Nor does he want anyone to know about the dying thing, either. At least she has that much optimism. He himself has very little. He grudgingly finds himself agreeing, to some extent.] Well... we've been through a lot, that's true. It would be quite the tale. Edward could sing songs about it.

But I don't want to hug most people. Just... the ones who matter. [This isn't something he'd normally talk about at all, but it seems Rydia has been getting through to him, over time.]

I'll try not to lose sight of things. I promise. I've already done so a few times, and it never ended well. I have a long path to walk, but... I'm determined to keep walkint it.

You- wha- oh. [He's a bit startled at first, but then he realizes it's a joke and relaxes.] Of course. Right. Thank you, Rydia. I'm glad you're here to lighten the mood whenever I've needed it.

Mhm....even if it couldn't hurt you a bit of publicity around. Maybe I could be very disceet and anonymous about this. [She loves to annoy him, okay?] That will happen, just watch us leave this place, embrace freedom and get to be celebrated in damcyan dances!

[Ugh, men are so dense sometimes! Rydia facepalms and sighs] Ok... so what if I want to hug you? We're friends, you said it yourself.

Good dragoon. Things will be fine in the end.

[She chuckles at his reaction and shakes her head.] I'm trying my best here. But... jokes aside, let me promise you someting [if it can help him feel better...] once we're home I'l find you and stay with you until you find someone- or you find something that makes you relly happy. No one should be left alone. [Especially not friends.]

What are you planning...? No, there will be no anonymous messages of any sort. [But it's Rydia, since when has anything he's ever done or said actually discouraged her when she wants to do something?] I hope you're right about that. It would be quite the celebration, I'm sure.

I did say it, and we are. I would never argue against that. I... well... Friends do hug, don't they? [Yes, he knows this, even if he sometimes seems to forget it.]

You... you'd really do that for me? What about the Eidolons and the Feymarch? Or Mist? Or... uh... well... Edge? [Though come to think of it, he's only ever seen Edge chasing after Rydia, and never the opposite.]

I don't know, maybe an innocent lady could tell other ladies about he incredible ualities of the commander of dragoons, mh? I'm sure that could help- evne if I should at least wear a wig... my green hair seem to stand out a lot between humans. [She may not be too invasive, just for you...] YES! You know, last time I visited the surface they were starting to rebuild Damcyan... one more reason to go and see him, who knows how far they went!

Friends. Do. Hug. Unless humans have a misterious series of rules to regulate hugs as well, I wouldn't be surprised. But... you know, I'd rather a Kain who's wearing normal clothes instead of a metal covered one with the risk of losing an eye in the process.

Of course, that's what friends are for! And... let's see, the Eidolon community won't collapse without me, not to mention I have the power to call them at my side whenever I want.

Actually, more than me and you traveling together it'd probably be a vacation with my family but that's... not important right now. Mist... [Okay, this may be a bit unpleasant for both...] I don't know if there are other summoners on the planet... and I'd rather not return in an almost empty city. I was raised in a large community, I think it'd feel too lonely out there. And... [There's no point in playing dumb like she did with Rosa, right?] My decisions are mine and mine alone. Kain, I'm... aware of his feelings for me, even if I can hardly tell if he's ever been serious about it, but I think it's clear enough how I feel since I returned to the Feymarch. I... don't have enough experience with romance nor I know him well enough to say I'll never love him but- it's very unlikely. And even if I did it would never be anything official, I... feel sick just at the idea of staying in a castle for too long. So- that's it, beside that awful sky of yours I don't see anything that would prevent me from traveling with someone.

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