The fucking stupidest. [ Her voice is thick with emotion. She left and she lost a lot during that time. She looks away from Kate, shaking her head. It really is the stupidest thing.

She wants to go back home if only in part to forget everything she gained and lost within her time in Hadriel, but she doesn't want to miss the chance to be with her friends, however long they have together. Going back home will return her to a lonely existence. ]

I don't want to be here but I don't want to... I don't want to be anywhere else without you guys. I don't want to go back to being friendless and alone. I don't want to not remember Mello and you and... I just.

This all... This all fucking hurts too much. [ She's feels as if she's drowning in tidal waves of emotion, remembering precious moments in a cave, and horrifying ones. Of lost friends. Of lost love. And it all just... hurts. ]

Tell me there's still booze here.