dragonsgrasp: (shoulder the burden)
Kain Highwind ([personal profile] dragonsgrasp) wrote in [community profile] hadriel2018-04-22 03:36 pm

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Seeking redemption was my entire goal before I was brought to this place. But I've lost my path recently... I ought to set myself in the right direction again.

Since I've committed numerous atrocities in my past, it's only fair that I start, first, by revealing them all here and now. After that... I don't know what I'll do, but I'll have to figure out something.

1. I used to frequently beat up and bully the person who became my best friend.
2. I have had have had wrongful feelings toward my best friend's beloved.
3. I'm constantly jealous of my best friend, to the point where I often loathe him.
4. I tried to stab my best friend in the back.
5. I stole some crystals.
6. I threatened to kill a little girl.
7. I betrayed all of my friends by fighting against them.
8. I aided in the kidnapping of my best friend's beloved.
9. I purposefully skipped my best friend's wedding.
10. I still sometimes feel a deeply overwhelming moral conflict.
11. In the middle of an endless war, I knocked out and kidnapped several of my allies.
12. I failed the dragoons, my kingdom, and my family name in every way possible.
13. I once dressed like this: Open attached image.

I can surely keep going, but this may be enough of a start. Forgive me. I truly regret all that I've done.
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-04-25 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
He answers without hesitation.

Because I love him, he was my family, and for a long time I believed he was all the family I had left. He took care of me to the best of his abilities despite everything.

Also because Atem is Atem, and he's never been able to hold much of a grudge, unlike others, but there is the possibility that Kain's friends can see beyond his treason and more into the person he really is.

Because I want to believe there is light in the dark, and because it wasn't all on him either.

It hadn't been Kain's fault completely after all.

Don't take me wrong... it... took time for me to forgive him, maybe I still resent him a little but, it's not hate what I feel towards him.
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-04-27 01:01 am (UTC)(link)
Oh... well that's a question that makes Atem's eyes widen for a second before he goes thoughtful and maybe a little melancholy. But it's fleeting, what Kain says to him it's surprisingly touching. He doesn't know what to say about that.

I don't... I don't know if he ever had the chance. 「He's sure he saw him through that door, it couldn't have been his imagination, he saw his uncle waiting for him on the other side, surely he must have gained forgiveness somehow, but he cannot be too sure about it.

But, Kain... it's only human to fail, as it is to accept our faults and learn from them. You have a precious opportunity to make amends, and grow.
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-04-27 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Reincarnation? Maybe... I hope so.

He hadn't thought about that, it's a good possibility given his past, he's seen it happen for a while now.

You'll have your chance. Also... remember how many lives you've saved here, when you fought the Null, and... well, back then in the cave, you saved my life. I think you're doing just fine. It's gonna be alright, Kain.
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-05-05 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
What Kain says makes him think, he should open his mind to all those possibilities. To see his uncle again, to talk to him, fix things...

I know you will, but I hope you won't have to, but don't worry, I will not refuse the help.

He's done being this prince in distress all the time!

I've gotten better lately. At... fighting, I guess.
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-05-08 02:02 pm (UTC)(link)
It will likely happen, huh? He hates admitting it but, he's right. He makes but a small hesitant pause, it's but an idea that he's toyed with for the past months, but maybe he can ask now.

Would you... if it's not a burden to you, would you please teach me how to fight like you?

His sword training with Yukari must have paid off by now, even if he feels he's still as mediocre as the day he arrived to Hadriel, he's light years away from considering himself good, but he cannot afford that feeling to drag him down now (Sorrow doesn't help at all either, but he's stronger than that...), specially not after the way Kain says it. He doesn't have any kind of magic powers in here to protect himself, or others, all he's got is this meager body, might as well use it the best way he can.
Edited 2018-05-08 14:02 (UTC)
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-05-17 01:43 pm (UTC)(link)
It's good that Atem has him as someone is his life, often, if not always, he tends to get lost a little in his own utopian world, one that in truth, he will not stop pursuing, one in which people are simply happy, there is no wars, there is no hate. But for that to happen, he has to fight, how ironic.

I enjoy the challenges. But, I assure you, I'll give you my all and more, Master Kain.

He gives him a little smirk, not his usual full of pride one, just one a little more humble.
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-05-21 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
Why wait?

Maybe starting right away might help Kain to distract himself a little from all that guilt.
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-05-21 01:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm free right now.

If this helps them both, sure, why not.

The colosseum?

Seems like a fitting place for training.」 
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[personal profile] puzzlingly 2018-05-28 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
I'll see you there, friend.

And he's gone with a smile, hopefully this will lighten Kain's mood a little.