[TEXT] Backdated to August 3rd

[killthisparty]

[CW for alcohol/substance abuse and intense depressive talk.]

iwonder if itd supposed tobe funny
all ths shit
you nkoe? beign stuck here
not being s person no more
but not rly a ghost

they talk to u slike they arent in charge
even if its not their choice
hey talk like they cant be blamerd for it
n some of u actually eat that uyp

they took two fo mine
two of ours. down to half

dont give a fuck if theyre not doing it
i dont casre
i hope the fucking robots wipe them out
every single one of them

have fun on ur lil roadtrip

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[ghostlocked]

im not following u.
what do u mean they took two of urs?

[vocarrah]

Do you need someone to drink that booze with?

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[thelastjoy]

if youre breathing and bleeding like a person think that means you are one
if the witch brings someone back you wouldnt say they werent real
aint the witch doing this but it aint that different

[She doesn't like hearing him talk like this. Even if, right now, she gets it. Even if she feels the same.]

you crash at all ?

(Video)

[stonebird]

You write as if you are inebriated. (She is concerned.) A loss will not be easier to bear with a headache.

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[hasitsthorns]

drink some water, champ
you'll feel better in the morning

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[killthisparty]

thanks mom
aint no use ijn sleepin

Re: (Video) nevermind the earlier

[killthisparty]

[ He rarely turns on video, but, clearly, today is not a day to care.

He's lying down on a bed, and the phone is being moved way too much for a clear picture most of the time, held above him.]

Ding ding ding, we got a winner winner chicken dinner. [ A lazy grin on a pale face with dark bags under his eyes.]

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[killthisparty]

two of my crew
just ghosted away like thjey wenre never there

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[killthisparty]

forget to breathe somethigns babygirl
and i dont think the withc can hear us here

im lying down if that counts

[killthisparty]

think i got it bud
but feel free to byob

[vocarrah]

[Well! That isn't an outright rejection.]

Where can I find you?

[killthisparty]

huh fuck
not anyone yre gonna be but
can step outdfide

[vocarrah]

[It takes him a few rereadings before he gives it a try]

Well, that would be nice if you could. I don't mind making a trip. If you wouldn't mind company, of course.

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[hasitsthorns]

you're welcome kiddo
sleep is awesome
take it from someone who only gets it like once a week these days

(Video) <3

[stonebird]

(She knows about loss and the pain that accompanies it. She hadn't wanted to leave her bed after her father's death - and then she had felt the same when her mother and brother were killed. It might seem strange, but she could be a good friend to him at this point.)

Have you eaten? The last thing you need is to drink on an empty stomach.

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[thelastjoy]

in out in out
who says she aint listening ? all it takes is trying
she might surprise us

[It doesn't really, but it's better than nothing and more than she expected.]

you feeling up for company?

[ghostlocked]

o. that sucks.
it happens sometimes tho. idt the gods pick ppl on purpose.
were they ur friends from home? or friends u made here?

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[laststartofall]

[Only one question.]

Where you at, firefly.

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[killthisparty]

so do i
ori go cometose
preachin to the choir ladt

Re: text;

[killthisparty]

why
u gonna pick me up n tell me ieverythings ok?

[killthisparty]

[ He wouldn't tell people where he lives, but, right now? Right now, he doesn't care. Doesn't have it in him to care.]

dont care either way
up north
tje big houses
catch me outside

[killthisparty]

does it matter if they do
we're here to feed them and thats all theyreally carea obut
an they werer my family
aint dgort no friends here

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[killthisparty]

[ It hurts to talk about the Witch. It hurts to hear about a home you can't come back to, any way you slice it. When it keeps getting teared away from him, from them, slowly and cruelly.

And he doesn't feel like company. He can't stand the idea of her seeing him like this when she's big enough to parse how pathetic it is.]

aint heerd her voice in a long time
we lost connecteion a long time ago.

im okay
just feelin a lil sick

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[killthisparty]

[ She could, if she can push through all of the thorns and guilt and push back. Party, unfortunately, has never been good at making friends, and the one's he's made are so special it hurts.]

No. [ He pauses, after blurting the answer before thinking.] Why make it harder to get in there?

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[thelastjoy]

just cause she stopped talking back didnt mean she stopped caring
shes been watching all the time

[It feels risky to say, edging too close to needing to explain how she knows that the Witch had always been there. More than that, she knows his fickle moods, can look back with a clarity born of age and remember glimpses of how he used to be when things got this bad. There’s still a rise tint covering it all, even his behavior now. As much as she understands now as she barrels toward adulthood, he’s still her childhood idol. One of her parents even if she won’t say the words. No matter the risk of setting him off, it makes her want to soothe him. Save him from the kind of heartache it took her years to heal from.

That’s why his attempts to keep her away sting.]

i could be there in half an eye blink
help you out and stuff
until the sick passes