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[am_i_a_monster]

[Abigail died in the deserted plot and has just been revived.]

Hello? Can anyone hear me? Is anyone out there? It's dark out. I can't see anyone. Please tell me I didn't go through all that just to be alone again.

[There's a moment of Abigail crying.]

I was dead. Am I still dead, is that what this is?

[Being alone feels like hell to her.]

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[am_i_a_monster]

It hurt to be alone.  I had nightmares.   Even when I was awake,  I couldn't stop thinking about it.

[She can almost see those girls, Nick Boyle, and more, as she talks to him.] 

All I could think about was the people that are gone because of me, how I'm a monster.  And I am a monster.  Leo showed me that once before.  It's like I told you on the plane.  Some people are stained now.  I'm stained. He showed me the stains, it was in me and it was red.

[She stops, not sure if it's even makes sense if Will's not seen the red glow.   He still has a pure soul in her mind.  Killing her father was done in her defense.] 

I didn't want to be stained anymore.  I used to tell myself that I could live with anything.  But I can't when I'm alone. 

[She nods.] 

Yeah, he could come back.   He can help me, help both of us figure out how to feel about all of it.  He understands these things.  And he'll give it all meaning.   I'm not a monster to him.

[She looks down.  It was all for nothing.] 

I didn't know Hope would be back.  The gods weren't around.  I thought death would mean something,bring balance, destroy evil.  Or that it would at least make it all go away. 

[Like her father tried to do.] 

Maybe what I went through had to happen.   Maybe I'm not supposed to be alive.  If my dad had just started with me, instead of those girls..

[She can't finish the sentence.  She's heard it enough in her dreams.  He should have killed her so he wouldn't have killed all those girls.  So she wouldn't have gone on to gut people and shove them through windows. So Beverly wouldn't have died because she found her hiding spot.] 

Just be careful, please.

[No more deaths because of her.]