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[strangelic]

Um... I'm Castiel. Some of you know me, obviously. I sometimes show myself at the clinic--I'm a healer. Well. [ He looks down into his lap. ] I try to be. The ailment that so badly hit us last month was beyond my ability to remedy, and for that I am deeply sorry.

However if there is anything, any scrape, any...broken leg, or incurable sickness... I should be able to resolve it. Should be. Given the state of my powers here, it does seem to be a game of chance. But I have healed far worse in the past. It's better, surely, to let me try than to live with pain and scarring when I might help with both.

But that isn't what I was here to say, not really. I wanted to... I want to...

I haven't been very clear, and I feel that it's important, given the way things were, and the way things will likely be again. I hear you, all of you, when you turn to prayer. It's impossible to avoid, and while I understand that it is private... I just wanted to apologize, either way.


[ ooc: Castiel doesn't hear all character's prayers since you can opt out of that on his permissions post, however! It's a fun way to make new CR with him if you're interested; just drop him a prayer in his IC inbox! ]

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[oversear]

[ Armand looks genuinely confused as his hand is held, but then a small, boyish, shy small splits his face. This is much a blessing as the healing. He shared kisses with Sybelle and Benji but it was always him in control, the obvious powerhouse granting love on to his frail and delicate children. To be at the receiving end of such affection is everything he's ever wanted. ]

I know such a weight. I felt it for a very long time. Sometimes I wondered if it would endure as long as I would.

[ He thinks on this. He is a violent creature. He has a hard time changing his ways. But he thinks once he cut ties to the cult that brainwashed him a lot of his sin disappeared. ]

That is a reassuring thought. I wish to be a better person.

[ His lips quirk into a self-deprecating smile. ]

A better vampire.

[strangelic]

And yet it is wholly yours. Individually yours. You would not be who you believe you are without it, nor shedding it remain so.

[ It is the pain itself that is the blessing, and the place to start, something to hold on to. Castiel has understood that, perhaps he can guide him on his way.

Vampire or not. ]

You can be. I am certain of it.