It's not easy to explain. I guess... [ She licks her lips. The other Alessa could have just shown to Shadow bits and pieces of her life, force him to understand the lengths she's gone to just to simply exist, but she's just coming to grips with her abilities again, their manifestation far more emotional than intentional right now, and that's not something she would ever dare try in her current state. ] I guess... Fuck, I don't know.
[ The words fall out without much meaning to. She can't stop them. ] I lived before I was Sharon, as someone else, and then I had to break into pieces to keep... myself. The first time was an accident, and she had no name. But the second time was Sharon. [ A breathy pause. ] I exist as all of myself now, with all of those years and memories, but I exist as Sharon physically existed, not as I originally did.
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It's not easy to explain. I guess... [ She licks her lips. The other Alessa could have just shown to Shadow bits and pieces of her life, force him to understand the lengths she's gone to just to simply exist, but she's just coming to grips with her abilities again, their manifestation far more emotional than intentional right now, and that's not something she would ever dare try in her current state. ] I guess... Fuck, I don't know.
[ The words fall out without much meaning to. She can't stop them. ] I lived before I was Sharon, as someone else, and then I had to break into pieces to keep... myself. The first time was an accident, and she had no name. But the second time was Sharon. [ A breathy pause. ] I exist as all of myself now, with all of those years and memories, but I exist as Sharon physically existed, not as I originally did.