hadriel | ✘ Round 4

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✘ Round 4 | [Audio]

[It's time for someone who rarely accesses the network to rear his head again, driven to desperation as the days have ticked by and he's failed to find even a trace of one of his closest friends. That being said when Glacius speaks there's an uncharacteristic urgency tinting his voice, worry bubbling just underneath the surface.] Kate Galloway. Has--has anyone seen or heard from her recently?

[Realizing that in his haste to get to the point he's left out some details, he dials it back a bit:] She's, ah, a human woman. Brightly-colored hair. Worked at the clinic, primarily. I... haven't seen a trace of her ever since the masquerade and...

... Please. [His voice finally wavers noticeably, resignation clashing up against his innate tendency to hope again hope. This can't be how it goes.] I need someone to tell me she's still here.

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I have not seen her, either. I was beginning to wonder. I will search. But. . .

[ This is not good news, if those she is closest to do not know where she is. Not good news at all. For her friends, and for Curufin, who counts her as a friend, though he hasn't known her long. His mood suddenly takes a nose dive. ]

Damn. I know she wanted to go home. But if she did, I am sorry for all those who will miss her. [ Especially for Glacius, who seems to care deeply for her. ]

I know that too. And I wanted her to be free, I did. Just... I always thought that it was... something we were going to earn together. Having her torn away like this... [It makes him feel as though something important has been taken away from him.. probably because it has.]

[ He nods. ] And that's how it should have been. Something you earned or accomplished together. [ Sigh. ] I wish things happened the way they should. But damn, they almost never do.

You said you saw her at the masquerade ball? Did she seem to have any intimation that she was going? I mean, in retrospect. Anything she said or did that even in the smallest way indicated such a thing? [ He couldn't say exactly why he wants to know this. Maybe because there would be an obscure kind of comfort in it -- for Kate herself, maybe, or even for those who are left behind -- if she had intuited that something was coming to an end, and had tried to leave even the most obscure message of farewell. But would it be a comfort to Glacius? Maybe, maybe not. ]

Edited 2017-05-04 22:52 (UTC)

No, nothing. [Glacius shakes his head adamantly, regardless of the fact that this is an audio feed and thus the action can't be seen.] If she had... I would not have... I would not have just let her slip away like this. I would have done as much with that night as I possibly could have; I would have told her...

[...Well, a lot of personal things about how important she was that have nothing to do with the person speaking to him here. Of course, this all begs the question of why wasn't he doing those things normally. He was taking advantage of her presence, he thinks, and that thought just makes the alien feel even worse.]

[ Curufin nods. He knows about regrets over things not said or done when the loved one was still around to hear them or to benefit, and the loss to oneself, of that opportunity. It can leave such a bitter sorrow. ]

Yes. [ Softly.]

[ Long pause. But he has heard the dejection in Glacius' voice. Curufin's own belief is that sometimes it happens that, there is that one person who makes it possible to trust, to share, to not keep things inside. There may or may not ever be another such person, but after that, it becomes easier to let others become a part of one's life. At least, that was his experience. He hopes it may be so for Glacius, whom he likes and respects and wishes well. ]

Is there anything. . . I mean, I was just wondering if there is anything that you and Kate's other friends can do to acknowledge your appreciation of her, of the time she spent here, of what she meant to you? She's not dead, so not exactly a memorial, but maybe something like that? It doesn't take away sorrow, but still, such remembrances can have meaning.

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... That... that is a good idea. Thinking of what can be done, instead of fixating on what cannot. I will have to consider this, and think on what might be most fitting, what would honor her properly. Thank you for this, it is... good to feel like there is something I can do.

You are very welcome. And please let me know if you decide to do something. If it's some sort of occasion for Kate's friends, I would be happy to attend. And if you decide on something more private and personal, then that is understandable, and I hope it helps.

O-of course I will let you know. This was your idea, after all, and far be it from me to exclude anyone who might properly honor her. It just... may take me a bit to figure everything out, as I have never organized a gathering of humans, or... mostly humans... before.

[He pauses, then gives a weary little sigh.] But I will do this. I want to do this.

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[ Hearing both the determination and the weariness. ]

If you would like some help, you have only to ask.

If you wish out to reach out to others and gauge interest, that would be a good starting point. Any other ideas, I am open to hearing.

I will do that, if you like.

But do you have any ideas yourself? Both as to what would please Kate, if she had a say in it, and what might comfort your own heart?

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