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hadriel2017-08-15 07:33 pm
lifetothefullest) wrote in hadriel2017-08-15 07:33 pm
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005 [Video]
[Lance is looking a little more awake than he has been the past two weeks or so, and also in a better mood; his expression and tone are both lighter as well when he addresses the camera.]
I guess everyone is working on solving mysteries at the moment, and I actually had something I'd been meaning to ask for a little while, so this seems like a good a time as any; I'm interested anything anyone is willing to tell me about their experiences regarding being skipped over during an event. Or, similarly, if anyone was affected by one and it didn't last the entire time; I know several people began to see through the latest one while it was still going on.
[Including himself, though he doesn't know if that's something that happens often or it was kind of a special case. He does know, though, that people sometimes get skipped over completely, and why that happens seems like a mystery worth looking into.
And, for a completely different subject--]
I also wanted to ask about how someone would go about getting more bullets, because I know they aren't stocked at the armoury. I'm not out yet, but I'd prefer to solve this issue before I am.
[Thinking ahead, and whatever. He'd had to use a lot more than expected during new arrival day this month.]
I heard something about a deal with Rage, but that doesn't seem to be an option right now, so I was hoping someone else might have an idea or be willing to trade for something.
[It's worth a shot, no pun intended.]
I guess everyone is working on solving mysteries at the moment, and I actually had something I'd been meaning to ask for a little while, so this seems like a good a time as any; I'm interested anything anyone is willing to tell me about their experiences regarding being skipped over during an event. Or, similarly, if anyone was affected by one and it didn't last the entire time; I know several people began to see through the latest one while it was still going on.
[Including himself, though he doesn't know if that's something that happens often or it was kind of a special case. He does know, though, that people sometimes get skipped over completely, and why that happens seems like a mystery worth looking into.
And, for a completely different subject--]
I also wanted to ask about how someone would go about getting more bullets, because I know they aren't stocked at the armoury. I'm not out yet, but I'd prefer to solve this issue before I am.
[Thinking ahead, and whatever. He'd had to use a lot more than expected during new arrival day this month.]
I heard something about a deal with Rage, but that doesn't seem to be an option right now, so I was hoping someone else might have an idea or be willing to trade for something.
[It's worth a shot, no pun intended.]
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[it does help to have the validation. she's gone through her life (and afterlife) feeling like most of her emotions weren't and it hurt. even though she always tried to bury it with layers of snark and cynicism]
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[Because he can't see George as being so unlikable as to never bond with any other children despite trying to, and even kids who are considered 'weird' by classmates usually end up with at least one or two friends who are as 'weird' as they are.
So he has a few ideas already as to what the underlying cause of her social issues might've been, but it's far too early to say for sure.]
How was your relationship with your parents, aside from the issues you've already told me?
[He's wondering if there's anything more there than what seems like a distance created by lack of mutual trust. That's enough on its own to be a problem, of course, but he wants to know if it's the only thing.]
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[George was a perfect storm of insecurity, much higher than normal intelligence, and physical awkwardness. so she didn't feel comfortable approaching other kids, the other kids resented her for outscoring them all the time at school, and she couldn't even excel at sports to make up for the first two things]
I dunno. My relationship with my parents used to be okay. Competed in a mother-daughter bowling tournament when I was six and came in second. And my dad and me used to have this tradition, we'd go to a diner for breakfast every Sunday morning. Then, they had Reggie and everything changed.
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[He doesn't want to worry her, or tell her anything that will cause her more problems if it turns out he's incorrect. George's answer to his question gives a very clear thing to focus on in the meantime, though--]
Reggie?
[A younger sibling, he's guessing by context, but it's still definitely best to ask.]
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[no, she doesn't want to borrow trouble.]
Miriam Regina Lass. Little sister. She's ten, or at least was ten when I died.
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[That's not the largest gap even between siblings of course, but it's still a significant one.]
Did you get along?
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[George and Reggie's relationship was complicated even before she died]
...no. Mostly, I ignored her. So she'd do stuff like hide in my closet.
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[Sibling relationships can be complicated, of course, and this is one of those areas where Lance has to go more by the book than based on experience; although there are people in his adult life who are very much like siblings now, he never had any growing up.]
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Did you not want a relationship with her at all?
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Nnnnnope. She did. I could tell 'cause she was always hanging around me wherever I was in the house. But she just. Sat there. Didn't try to make conversation or anything.
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Do you regret not forming a bond with her?
[Now that she--presumably, anyway--can't?]
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...when I was alive? No. After I died? [a pause] Yeah. Yeah, I did.
[yeah, she does not want Reggie to come here under any circumstances]
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Do you think that might be something that's weighing on you, whether consciously or subconsciously?
[It isn't a leading question, because he's genuinely asking; it may or may not be an issue for her. But even though it's George who's dead, not Reggie, the end result is still the same; part of mourning is recognizing and accepting the loss of future contact and a relationship with someone, and in this situation the loss goes both ways.]
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I know it's weighing on me. Reggie didn't--didn't take my death well. She started. Acting out, you know?
[it's definitely an issue for George. she'd sort of spy on her family to see how they were doing and it was obvious that Reggie was having a really hard time with George's death, doing things like stealing toilet seats from other people and hanging them from a tree, skipping school, and redecorating her room with what was left of George's things after their mother sold most of them at a garage sale]
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That's normal, and not your fault. She'll improve in time, as she adjusts.
[Grief is just as hard--if not more so--for kids as it is for adults. But it isn't something George should feel responsible for, which is the impression he gets from her response.]
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From what I can tell, she doesn't wanna adjust.
[she definitely feels responsible for it. like if she had spent more time with Reggie when she was alive, maybe Reggie wouldn't be acting the way she was when George left. Reggie is the only thing George misses from back home]
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[Not in the grand scheme of things, anyway. And Reggie is also right at the age where kids start to rebel and act out anyway, so it's no surprise that it all combined together.]
She'll be okay.
[He can't know that for sure, but kids are resilient. He feels it's likely enough that it's okay to tell George that, especially since she doesn't need the additional worry.]
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[it feels longer than six months. it feels more like six years. being here hasn't helped what with the god tricks]
...you really think so?
[she's trying to not worry, she's trying to assure herself that Reggie will get over it, but George haunted her own family back home. the urge to do so is still strong, even separated from them]
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[But that's not just specifically about Reggie, either.]
And so do you. You're mourning losing her just as much as she's mourning losing you.
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[because George has never lost anyone before and this is entirely new to her
...I guess I hadn't really thought of it that way.
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[But giving even a rough estimate is difficult because it depends so specifically on the individual, the situation, if they have any support, and other factors.
He nods a little in a combination of understanding and sympathy at George's next comment; it had taken awhile for Lance to think about that himself, in dealing with his own situation.]
One of the aspects of mourning is the loss of future experiences with that person. Usually, this is because the person you're grieving has died, but in a case like yours it goes both ways even thought your sister is going to be alright.
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[George has Jo. that helps her with her feelings of loneliness. she has a few other people she'd count as friends, though not as close
George misses her sister and genuinely regrets keeping her so far out of George's life. but she knows there's nothing she can do about it now, especially not while she's here]
Y-yeah. I mean, our mom used to go on and on about how someday, we'd be best friends and how we had so much in common. I thought it was bullshit back then, but now I kinda wonder.