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[Adam is not terribly fond of posting on the network, where anyone can hear and respond, but this is kind of important. He doesn't sound nervous, just - very controlled as he jumps right into it.]

So, I know of at least a couple of people who were here in Hadriel before, left, and then came back. Neither of them have memories of their initial time here.

I'm interested in anyone else who's had the same thing happen, but - I guess this is also a warning. The Door must do something to us when we leave, something that makes us forget the things that happened here. It's up to you whether you think that's good or bad, but everyone deserves to know.

And if anyone has left and come back but does remember things, say something. So far this seems universal, but there's no way to be sure yet.

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Exactly.

[He didn't really have much doubt that Ronan would feel the same as him, but it's an odd comfort to know for sure. He smiles, more in response to Ronan's grin and the way it makes his heart beat faster than for any other reason.]

Better to know, and figure out how to deal with it, than to walk around in ignorance.

[Adam can't blame Gansey for wanting to know everything, either, even if some of it is hard to talk about. It would be no easier for any of them, he thinks, but they'd all rather know.]

But I'd really prefer it if neither of us forgot anything.

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[greywaren]

[Ronan remembers seeing Adam smile once, months ago, and deciding that it looked good on him. That he didn't do it enough. At the time, he hadn't been vain enough to think that he could even want to be the cause of such an expression, not with any sort of regularity.

But he is here and now, and it fills him with an indescribable warmth.]

No shit.

[He leans in again, nudging his cold nose against Adam's cheek.]

I'd hate myself if I ever forgot this.

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[He swallows a laugh - though Ronan has said nothing funny, sometimes the two of them, this affection, feels so impossible and incredible that it makes Adam want to laugh in disbelief. He raises a hand instead, to touch Ronan's cheek gently.]

I won't let you. Believe me, after everything, I'm not making us go through that again.

[Adam definitely doesn't have the patience for that, not when he knows how nice it can be.]

But you're not gonna forget, and neither am I.

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[greywaren]

[He nods at the promise, even though he knows that there's no way that Adam can ensure that it never happens. He believes it won't, which has to be enough for now- and besides, Ronan can't exactly dread anything horrific in their future when he has the warmth of Adam's fingers and the hard line of his jaw pressed against his skin.]

Never.

[Ronan promises it back. And the thing is, he doesn't lie- so they'll just have to make sure that it stays true. It's easier now to settle against him, and he eases down so he can rest his cheek against Adam's shoulder, after everything, just letting the calm of this moment bleed into his memory.

Whatever's there, he thinks, whatever happens to them- it's worth it, just for this.]