Video 2 (Backdated to the 12th)

[toiletseat_girl]

[the video opens on an awkward looking teenage girl, sitting cross-legged on a bed, wearing a tank top and a pair of shorts. she's holding a sheathed sword in her lap.

finally, she speaks]

Okay. I'm looking for someone to teach me how to fight. Fist-fighting, martial arts, swordfighting, guns, I don't care. I'm just sick of everyone else fighting my battles for me.

I guess that's about it. Just--lemme know if you can help. Thanks.

Comments

[toiletseat_girl]

Well, I'm into it. I want to be strong.
[there's a long pause in between replies]
Sonuvabitch. You really didn't remember anything? That's such bullshit. The gods are already fucking with us, the least they can do is let us remember it. It just seems like a.
[there's another long pause]
Like a violation.

[ghostlocked]

u are.
ur fucking right abt that. i dont want to forget this shit.
then wtf is the point?
idk what the motivation is for wiping our memories either if thats whats going on.
i need to talk to love soon anyway so ill ask abt it.

[toiletseat_girl]

I don't, either. I have actual friends here. I want to remember them.
I guess to them, the point is that we're food.
Wiping our memories is a mindfuck and it's not fair.
Okay, cool. Lemme know what you find out.

[ghostlocked]

tbh im more worried that the memory bs isnt something the gods are doing on purpose.
it might be a side effect of traveling thru the door or smthn.
idk. but if its not caused by the gods on purpose im not hopeful that theyll be able to prevent it.
its still worth a shot tho.
ill keep u in the loop. dw.
and lmk when u want to make ur focus.
i kno ur chompin at the bit but dont say rn. think it over for a couple days ok? and make sure u have the time to kill. like i said ur gonna feel like garbage for the first day or two.

[toiletseat_girl]

Who else would have a motive, though? I figure they wouldn't want people running around, knowing about this place.
But when you came back, the memories came back. Wouldn't that mean that they're still somewhere in your mind, only blocked somehow?
Okay, thanks.
Maybe in a week or two, then? I'll need to let them know at the clinic that I'll need a couple of days off.

[ghostlocked]

no one but it might just be a thing that happens when u move thru the door.
wouldnt be the first time ive heard of weird toll shit happening when u hop between dimensions.
hm tho u raise a good pt. idk how much good thatll do w.o a way to unblock them but thats better than losing em completely. ur right abt that.
yeah np. my schedule is wide open so just lmk.

[toiletseat_girl]

The Door. Forgot about that fucking thing. And of course the god who died is the one who knew the most about it.
You go dimension hopping a lot?
There has to be a way. A trigger, a moment of deja vu, a trick, something.
Okay, will do. Should be soon, though.

[ghostlocked]

yeah. way more than id like to.
comes w. the job.
theres prob a spell for unlocking lost memories or w.e at home.
which would be useful af if i had any way of remembering to look that shit up once i get out of here.

[toiletseat_girl]

Are the dimensions interesting at least?
Maybe you could write a note to yourself, telling you to look up memory restoration spells and why?
Always keep the note in your pants pocket so even if you did forget, there would be something to remind you.

[ghostlocked]

i wish it worked like that.
when i ended up back in nyc it was like i hadnt left at all. i cant even really pinpoint the moment where i left in the first place.
i have my cat right? she grew up a lil when we ended up here the first time.
when we got home she was back to bein small. just like how she was before we left.
so was i except the changes were less dramatic. but all the scars and shit i picked up in hadriel were gone.
and jf remembers bein here too. she remembered michael right away.
idt she remembered hadriel when we were back home either bc i finally got her to stop knockin shit off the counter while we were here but guess who had to start from scratch once we got home.
point is the issue runs deeper than mem loss.

[toiletseat_girl]

[it takes a while for her to respond]
Sonuvabitch.
Should've known it couldn't be that easy.
It sucks that Sorrow's the one who died. He was supposed to know the most about the Door. Maybe he would've known how this shit works and why.

[ghostlocked]

no fucking kidding.
im gonna try love. idk that theyll know anything but its worth a shot.
ill let u kno how it goes.

[toiletseat_girl]

Ugh. This place.
Okay. Good luck?

[ghostlocked]

thanks. u too.