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[He is like a caged beast, moving restlessly indoors while the wind howls at his doors and windows. Anakin has never done well alone, but he's afraid to live with anyone.]

How can anyone stand this planet? [Gripping his mechno-hand into a tight fist, he breathes deeply, trying to calm the anger he feels almost constantly.] What needs to be done? I'm strong; I'm powerful - I can help.

[Anything is better than being stuck with his memories.]

I'm Anakin Skywalker, by the way, and I think I've been here before.

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Huh, it does, doesn't it?

[He scratches at the side of his face, squinting a bit in obvious thought before he says anything.]

I know the moving has to do with the Null, but they certainly get a lot more out of it. What with the whole, [He makes a vague hand motion with his hand] feeding off our emotions thing.

[He's not really accusing yet, just thinking out loud. He doesn't know too much about anything yet to make any accusations. At least, that's the way he sees it.]

[He sees no fault in Scott's logic. If the gods feed on emotions, they must be giving them a feast each time they are moved to an entirely different environment.]

They're sort of like...parasites. The Null is dangerous - I think we can agree on that - but the gods aren't much better.

[So there's no one to rely on. That's not new for Anakin, but it is damn frustrating.]

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Gotta admit, didn't exactly get a glowing impression of these guys when I first arrived. As much as I'd like to learn more before I made any real judgement it's not looking so...

[He pauses, having trouble putting what he wants to say into words.]

I mean, emotions? Those are, uh, really personal, you know? It's creepy.

You can say that again. [Creepy is putting it lightly. It's a perversion of the sort of relationship people should have with their gods.] I must be overfeeding them. I need to stop.

[So he will keep himself busy, hunting and/or making repairs. He extinguishes his lightsaber and clips it back to his belt.]

[Scott snorts a laugh.] Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm engorging them.

[He'll openly admit he's a very emotional person, which is a huge reason why he can't stop thinking about this whole "feeding off emotions" thing. Ugh.]

Just try not to go too out of your way to not give them what they want. That can be just as dangerous, you know?

I have a bad habit of going too far. [He forces himself to sit, but his muscles are still so tense that he wonders if he will ever be comfortable again.] I should work on that.

[Or maybe it's too late.]

I've never really understood patience being a virtue.

I mean...I can't say I'm known for my patience either. Probably the opposite, in fact.

[He's only surprised he hasn't had one of his weird mental breakdowns yet. Maybe once everything finally sinks in. Mr. Don't go too out of your way to not give them what they want" hasn't exactly been in a rush to come to terms with everything yet.]

I swear they're doing this on purpose. "We can't control who the door brings in" [He uses an overly ridiculously mocking voice.] Pft. My ass.

Whether they're doing it on purpose or not, we're stuck. I've noticed...on the network...sometimes they send out messages. I'll question them the next time they do.

[Extensively. His training in interrogation will help, but, as always, Anakin tends to go too far with it.]

Oh, yeah. Two of them recently came back...you could probably talk to them at their temples if you really wanted to.

[Scott considered it, but they just got back. And also, he's semi-avoiding it.]

What're you going to ask them?

I will. [His gaze sharpens and he makes himself think. What questions are essential?]

I want to know our purpose for being here. I want to know what sort of war they are hoping to wage. There is no point in pretending we are here for a peaceful existence.

[Scott hums thoughtfully at that.]

Fair enough. Even if you don't get a straight answer you still might learn something. [From what they don't say, or something like that.] By the way, question for you — and you don't have to answer it but...you said you think you've been here before, right? Do you only remember bits and pieces or...?

It feels more like a distant memory. A lot has happened between then and now. [Maybe his brain can only focus on one reality at a time?] I will remember in time, I hope. I don't like the idea of memories being taken from me or manipulated.

[How can he trust anything?]

I don't blame you. Your memories are what shape you, right? Anyway, I hope things start clearing up for you.

[That can't be easy to deal with. In fact, it sounds scary.]

I guess you were here a pretty long time ago then, huh?

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