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[iustitiae]

fuck.

[he kind of considers just leaving that but, as a afterthought tacks on:]

look, if anyone wants to ask the real me about anything happened, i'm here now.

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[unitas]

[ she senses this is likely sarcasm so: ]

Yeah, thought it would. You're welcome.

[iustitiae]

are you always a wealth of positivity like this

[unitas]

I could go all Debbie Downer? [ But that's not necessary. He's probably kicking himself more than anyone else. ]

Look, I've just been here a long time and know better than to beat myself up over what the gods force me to do, or witness, or say. It's a lesson I think everyone should know and learn.

[ And the 'truth' his double told was only his double's truth. When Connor wants to tell people that shit, that's when the real truth comes out. ]

[iustitiae]

I'd just be lying to everyone, if he hadn't done that. I don't know if that's better.

[unitas]

So? We all have secrets, some darker than others, but that doesn't mean we deserve to have them forced from us.

[iustitiae]

Maybe not. But people shouldn't have to get close to someone lying to them, either.

[unitas]

Were you lying to people? [ Not that she judges because, well, she lies all the time. Hell, even her name is a lie. ]

[iustitiae]

It feels like it. Pretending to be normal. To be good. That's what people saw me as, but it wasn't right.

[unitas]

It wasn't wrong, either. You're not abnormal or evil for what you've done but you can be if you let yourself, if you decide that's the kind of path you want to walk. [ She does have some experience in this department. ]

[iustitiae]

why would anyone want to be that

[unitas]

Most people don't want to be like that but things can happen that can change that. The loss of everything you know, vengeance, survival. People go down that path because they don't realize there's another.

Hell, sometimes there isn't another.

[iustitiae]

i dont want to believe that

[that that he doesn't believe it - but part of him still wants to hold onto that there's always a better way!!" naivete.]

[unitas]

Then don't. I hear ignorance is bliss.

[iustitiae]

yeah ive heard that too

[unitas]

You might want to go with ignorance, you'll handle it better.

[iustitiae]

i dont know about that

[unitas]

I guess you just have to go one with your life then.