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[iustitiae]

fuck.

[he kind of considers just leaving that but, as a afterthought tacks on:]

look, if anyone wants to ask the real me about anything happened, i'm here now.

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[iustitiae]

Wait, what?

[connor shakes his head, pulling away so he can really look her in the eye, but he keeps contact by holding onto her shoulder]

No, that's absolutely not it. Your mom didn't kill herself because of you.

[fourthsaken]

[Jade can't look him in the eye, fixed on her lap as if it's the most interesting thing in the world.]

You don't know that. No one except my mom knows that and I can't ask her.

[iustitiae]

I do. Because your mom put up with you for years, probably through all the awkward and annoying phases.

[like your emo phase jade oh wait]

And that wasn't enough to make her do it. But magic like that -- who knows how it messed her up. You didn't mean to do it, you had no idea what you were doing.

[fourthsaken]

But I wasn't... I was a good kid before she died.

[Her emo phase was a direct result of her mom's suicide. Before that, even when her mom had hated her she had tried to be the perfect daughter.]

[iustitiae]

Mothers know grief makes kids do dumb shit.

[fourthsaken]

... You don't think she'd hate me if she met me now? Like, if she was her before the accident?

[iustitiae]

She definitely wouldn't hate you. Matt and I think you're awesome.

[you guys aren't her real mom and dad]

[fourthsaken]

You guys are weird.

[Said with fondness.]

[iustitiae]

So what? We're still unbiased third parties.

[fourthsaken]

I live with you. That's not unbiased.

[iustitiae]

Yeah but we were unbiased when that started.

[fourthsaken]

[Jade sighs, already knowing that she won't win this argument. But she's too stubborn to give up on it quite yet.]

You found me on the middle of the street and invited me to stay with you. Maybe you weren't biased then but you were definitely something.

[iustitiae]

Maybe. But the fact remains that I think you're great. And you're a way better person than me.