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[This message is over a week overdue. Way to go, Anakin. Stellar life choices as always!]

If anyone saw me behaving oddly... [When doesn't he?] I was drunk. I won't be doing that again. [Because it resulted in a dislocated arm, a bitten tongue and lots of bruising.]

I didn't mean - I didn't want to - [He grits his teeth, frustrated.] I can't remember if I hurt anyone. I'd like to say I wouldn't, but -

[He has all the skills necessary to see to hurting just about anyone. Or worse.]

You're welcome to punch me if I did.

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[So she's seeing from his conversation with Shadow. Even the fact that he was thrown with all of that power and skill that he has is a very good indication that something's very wrong here.]

Art, literature and music are all excellent methods of self-expression. Art and music are helpful for training the senses, as well.

[He...doesn't look convinced. Art, literature and music are great and all, but how can they distract him from a pain so deep he feels like it is consuming him?]

I've always done better with something more physical. It's hard for me to sit still, though I guess I have to right now.

I prefer training as well, but sometimes those things can help. Some of the finest masterpieces in history have been created as a result of the artist, writer, or composer's strong emotions.

No offense, but I'm not looking to create art. I'm looking to... [Escape.] Calm down. Rest. I barely sleep, I forget to eat and I know I can be better than this. I can't go back a wreck.

None taken. It's something I find calming, but to each their own.

[Since he elaborates, she can come up with other suggestions.]

The hot springs are quite relaxing. How are your cooking skills? Trying new recipes would give you something more physical that's not overly strenuous, and then you would have a fresh reminder right in front of you to eat.

I'm not a bad cook and I'm going back to the hot springs tonight. [Hopefully he doesn't fall asleep in one and drown.] Thanks. It has been hard on me...being here...

I'm sure everyone feels that way. But I don't handle cages well and I don't like someone manipulating my emotions.

Some light stretches for the rest of your body might help with relaxation as well. People do tense up when they are in pain, as well as when they are upset. You would have to be mindful of your injuries, but anything you can do to ease tension in your back and neck in particular would likely help a lot as far as being able to sleep better.

[She nods. She's more okay with being here than some simply because she already knows she was fifteen minutes away from death when she was brought here. Weirdly enough, she's more shy about confessing that than she is about admitting to doing mercenary work.]

I doubt anyone would disagree with you on that.

Any suggestions about quieting your mind? I've tried meditation. The Jedi are so fixated on it as a solution. [And he tries it every night, focusing his mind on the Force that surrounds Hadriel. Yet disturbing images always intrude.]

I've thought about taking something for sleep, but what if I need to be alert? I don't like to be drugged. [So it's just a quandary. An endless riddle.]

Maybe this experience will teach me patience. [Won't Obi-Wan be proud?]

Other than what I already have suggested? I have Tranquility's blessing. You would not be groggy once you woke up. If you wanted, I could use it on you when Kylo is home, so that you would have someone around to wake you if there was an emergency.

[He smiles - the expression far closer to being genuine and true than it has appeared in the past.]

Really? What would you like in exchange?

[She considers saying more training once he's recovered, but that's something that likely would have happened anyway, given that he was the one seeking out students. So instead, she's going to suggest something else entirely.]

Spend some time painting with me after you've had some rest.

[She wants him to give it a try, and if he has no interest/inclination afterward, that's fine.]

[The request isn't what he is expecting. Anakin is pretty desperate for sleep - real, healing sleep - so there is a lot he would trade for it. Training he will happily give and even painting isn't uninteresting. ~~Oh no, Anakin, have you made a friend?~~]

I will. You can teach me.

[He wants something necessary to function that will require little from her. She could be opportunistic and ask for something more, but she doesn't see a point. Instead, she'd rather help him learn to relax.]

I should be over soon. Have something mild to eat, have a shower, and change into the most comfortable clean clothing you own.

I'll be ready when you arrive. [He can sense her through the Force so he will know when she's near.] I can fix something for you too if you want?

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