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Heya, guys. I'm sure a few of you um, already know what I'm gonna say.

[Chris definitely doesn't look as cheery as usual, but also not terribly upset; mostly he just seems a little drained, but otherwise calm enough.]

Em's uh... Emily's gone. So I guess I'm gonna have to take over for her in the 'telling people like it is' department, and I'd add like, the 'being right' one but I'm already right at least as often as she is. However, I'm totally not doing the sewing or getting up early to run the coffee cart parts. Gonna need other people to step in on those.

[And okay, joking aside, he takes a deep breath and continues.]

I know um, I know a lot of people here knew her, but not necessarily much about uh... What we're going back to, at home, since I don't think she talked about it much. So if anyone has any questions about that, I can probably answer, and hopefully that'll make things... You know. A little easier?

[Worrying about what people are returning to is usually the hardest part on him, when someone leaves, after all. Oh, and one more thing--]

Wolfie's still here, by the way. So no one freak if you see him with me; as Em always said, he only bites if you're an asshole.

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...You need to talk or anything? [ Because Chris and Emily have been around nearly as long as she has. They've suffered the same bullshit and to hear that Emily is gone. It's like a heavy pit in her belly, something akin to sadness and regret. She knows how close those two were and... It only seems right to offer. ]

[Although she can't see it, the offer causes him to smile just a little bit. Not that long ago it would've been completely unimaginable, and he really appreciates it.]

I think I'm okay, at least... You know. Right now.

[He knows Emily lives, back home. It's going to be a difficult road for her, and the rest of them, but he'll see her again; whether or not either of them will remember what happened here and how good of friends they ended up, who knows. But they'll have the chance, at least, and that's more than he can say about a lot of people.

So he's handling it, for the moment anyway.]

B-But um... If that changes...

[He might take her up on the offer.]

Edited 2017-06-09 04:16 (UTC)

Any time. [ She states. She knows what it's like to lose people now, to even have people to lose. Chris and Emily were important names in Hadriel. Sharon might not have been Emily's biggest fan but she'd been here a long time, she helped Chris with the coffee cart, helped make the emotes, and even started the sewing shop (something she ultimately thought of as useless but others seemed to like). It sours Sharon a little to know she's just gone, like so many others, but it's better than being stuck here, right?

Yeah, of course. ]

I'm just a call or text away.

Yeah. Thanks, Sharon, I um... I really appreciate it.

[He means it, and it's a little weird to think about having this kind of conversation with Sharon considering how much they'd disagreed about things for so long. But it's a nice weird, for sure.

But he doesn't want to dwell on this topic any longer, and tries to turn the conversation around a little bit; it's been a few weeks since he talked to her, after all, even if the events have been pretty tame.]

How um, how've you been doing?

[ The question feels strange to hear, especially when it's directed at her but after a long moment she responds. ]

I've been all right. I'm kind of starting to get tired of losing people, even the ones I don't care for. I always wonder who's next. [ And it's terrifying. Like a heavy weight. They'd already lost Chris once. They lost Kate, and Faith, and Arya, and Near and it's just not fucking fair. Not for any of them. ]

I'm holding up though, like usual.

Yeah, it... Kind of sucks. I mean, nothing against the new people or anything, but it'd be kind of nice to just have some sort of stability with the people here.

[Not just in that losing people is hard, but trying to figure out and deal with all the comings and goings, and whether they're going to help or cause problems or whatever else, just gets really old.]

Holding up's pretty much all we can ask for, I guess.

...It feels impossible some days, like we're always just keeping our heads above water. [ It's like drowning and there are no lifeboats to save them, strength of will and the occasional companionship often being the only things keep them (her) afloat. ]

I dunno, maybe I've just gotten kind of used to it, but it doesn't feel quite that bad to me. Just kind of like... Not great or anything, but getting by.

[But he's particularly easygoing, and adaptable. It served him really well on the mountain, and it's been doing so here as well especially lately; or, maybe he's just kind of gone numb to it. Either way.]

...Maybe it's easier if you haven't lived most of your life in a cage already. [ It's not meant to say that she's had it harder but, rather, that she's so tired of being a pawn in someone else's game. She's tired of pain and watching others fall only to be forced back to life like some fucked up respawn mechanic. ]

[It's okay; he gets what she means.]

Maybe, yeah. Or just a personality difference, or I drank too much in high school and zapped my brain.

[He's joking with that last part, but he thinks they could use the mood lightener.]

Ooh, you drank in high school? And here I thought you Mister Goody-two-shoes. [ Playfully. It's true. Chris doesn't look like he'd have drank much in school, probably too focused on school work and the like. ]

[He laughs at that.]

My ruse is working, then. No, I was totally that asshole who went to every underage high school party and didn't study and still aced all my tests.

[What a good life high school was, and then he actually had to pay attention in college. Then after the accident on the mountain with the twins, the whole appeal of getting super drunk really lost its appeal.]

Oh, well, then aren't you a lucky dog? [ Jokingly snide. Some small part of her feels a bitterness she never got experience her adolescence. ] You must have been so popular.

I can't tell if you're being sarcastic.

[He's totally unbothered by the teasing jabs; high school him deserves it.]

When in doubt, assume sarcasm. It's like my sword and shield.

Easy enough.

And, knowing you're being sarcastic, I can say hey, I totally was pretty popular. Who wouldn't want to be friends with someone who had mastered the art of doing well in school and underage binge drinking?

That sounds a lot like bragging, Chris. I guess you really were Mister Popular. Win prom king?

Hey, I'm just telling it like it is. But uh, no; did you meet Mike while he was here any of the like, three times?

Not officially. He looked like a lot like the average jock superstar asshole and I try not to have too many assholes in my friend group.

That's... Mostly fair, yeah.

[Mike's a bit more than that, and great to have around in an emergency, but Sharon's not wrong either.]

He was prom king. I'm sure you're like, totally shocked.

[ She gasps dramatically ]

No way, never would have guessed. How'd you end up friends with him?

[He has to laugh at that.]

No idea. I mean like... Our whole group makes no sense; I think maybe I met him through Em? Or Josh knew him? We just started hanging out one day.

[It's really a wonder the ten--and then eight, and now who even knows--of them had gotten along as well as they did.]

[ Her voice is soft come next reply, thoughtful with a twinge of jealousy. What would her life be like if she'd had friends? ]

It sounds like you were... like you were really lucky, Chris.

In a lot of ways, yeah.

[He doesn't have any problem admitting it, although his tone is also a little softer; he knows he had things a lot better than many other people did. He also knows that's all up in the air now, after what happened on the mountain, but he's been trying to think positively about it; after everything those of the group have accomplished while in Hadriel--in getting along, in putting the past behind them, in working things out and being a team--he feels like he should have faith that they can do it at home too. They'll be a smaller group, but maybe a stronger one.]

I can't help but be a little jealous. [ She admits beneath her breath. What wouldn't she give for a close family, close friends, no powers, no horror? What wouldn't she give for normalcy? ]

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