hadriel | 009✖; (voice)

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009✖; (voice)

"Any of you asshats realize that those urges that get inflicted on you on practically a monthly basis can be resisted, right?"

[Just going to let that sink in for a second.]

"Stop fucking shooting each other. Those things aren't actually toys."

[Boy is she glad that she melted down her own gun the second it caught her attention. But that also just means she's going to be carrying around her own piece, and it doesn't shoot paintballs.]

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You have my support in this endeavor. I would prefer to use my energies healing than to have others succumb to this madness. What if they never awaken? What if they're trapped within their own minds, being tortured with nightmarish visions, and we can do nothing to help them?

Trying not to think too much about that.

[Just take one thing at a time, or they'll just end up driving themselves crazy.]

Doubt that the gods would leave them in a permanent stasis, since they need us. [Unless they decide that they're more trouble than they're worth and just leech off the emotions from their coma-fever dreams, but again -- one thing at a time.] Guess we'll see after a week.

[Driving himself crazy is what he does, Rey. It's in his nature.]

I suppose.

[He's silent a few seconds.]

What would you do, were you to lose someone here?

Guess it depends on how they're lost. Because they were sent back home, or because something happened to them here that there's no god to conveniently resurrect them?

The latter. Someone close to you.

[sigh]

Hn.

[She was afraid of either of those being the case, because she doesn't have a clear answer for them.]

Hard to say. People die all the time. Have lost a lot. You just learn to move on. You have to, or you don't. [Because it arguably beats the alternative.]

[For someone who has also lost a lot of people in his life, Carlisle has never quite learned to move on. It's easier to stay where he is, mired in his sorrow, than to face the uncertain future.]

And if someone were to take them from you?

[Ah, yes. That's the million dollar question right there.]

What do you think would happen to them?

[It's entirely rhetorical. Carlisle might have a not-so-pretty picture painted for him just from the tone in her voice alone.]

[Rey's tone does indeed say all he needs to know.]

Ah.

I don't know what I'd do, if I'm being honest. I feel as though there'd be a fire burning in my chest, but no way to extinguish it.

That's when you hire a hitman. Generally.

[It's hard to tell whether she's being serious or not. But it's Rey, so chances are she's serious.]

[Serious, he assumes. It is Miss Rey, after all.]

I don't know if I have it in me to do even that. It's not as though revenge would bring back the lost.

Maybe not, but depending on the one responsible and their intent, it can at least prevent them from doing the same shit to someone else.

[Despite "revenge is a dish best served cold", Rey is too fiery not to do it.]

As with Shadow?

[His voice is quiet; the injuries the hedgehog left in his wake still haunt Carlisle, despite how long he's been absent from Hadriel.]

Sort of, yes.

[She sure is matter-of-fact about it.]

It isn't always the best solution, but neither is letting some shit go unpunished.

Do you believe he would have done the same to others? What he did to me?

He wasn't what you'd consider secretive about his behavior. People like that keep lashing out at others so long as they think they're the ones who've been wronged.

I see.

[Carlisle knows other individuals like that; he'd rather not compare them to Shadow.]

I know you had no real reason to, but I appreciate you looking out for me, even if it was in the best interest of others. I haven't the means to fend off someone with abilities like his.

[Not means he'd like to use, anyway.]

It wasn't just for the best interest of others, you know.

[She figures that would be obvious, but knowing Carlisle... It's better to make clear that she takes no liking in turning the other cheek when such things are happening, and she can do something about it.]

Ah.

[It isn't always immediately apparent to Carlisle, but he seems to understand well enough this time around. Either that, or he doesn't see fit to question it anymore.]

I will always wonder if things could have been different with him... and with me. Seeing echoes of individuals from other worlds, knowing how different they can turn out from one another has left me pondering the circumstances that have led me to be how I am.

[She sees where things are going with this conversation.]

Others are just as responsible for their actions as you are for your own. If you believed that shit could've been different, he'd have to have made the effort not to be an asshole as well, and it sounds like he had ample time to work on that. But he didn't. He blew it. That's not on you.

[Carlisle was bending over backwards trying to excuse his own mistreatment the first time they talked about this. There's no way he can be allowed to claim all the fault there, even if some of that blame is on him.]

[He's quiet for a few seconds after that, considering her words.]

I... know that, in my heart. It is accepting it as truth that is difficult, but... thank you. Your honesty, as frank as it may be at times, helps give me clarity.

[Just when she readies herself for a dismissal, Rey ends up being mildly surprised. Four for you, bro.]

Hey. Sometimes your brain is just stupid and doesn't listen to you. That's what I'm here for. To punch sense into your brain.

[With her sweet, sweet words, am I right?]

Aheh. I would prefer you not punch sense into my brain, but I- I appreciate the offer regardless.

[He could use a little punch to the brain with all the worrying he's been doing, admittedly.]

Well, if you ever change your mind, am always 'on call'.

[Rey might not seem like the type of jest, but there you have it.]

[Too bad Carlisle often can't tell if she's being serious or not.]

I shall remember that. Thank you.

[There's a quiet sigh on his end. At least he's stopped shaking for the time being. Rey is more help than she may ever realize.]

I will keep you informed if anything changes, if you'd like.

[Regarding those who've been shot, or in his case, doused in paint from breaking his gun.]

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