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[am_i_a_monster]

I've been wondering about love lately. Not just romantic love, any kind of love. I was told that every love is different and unique. It seems like it doesn't matter - love always messes people up. Like love always end up hurting people in one way or another. People hurt the ones they're supposed to love or hurt themselves or hurt someone else. Or they leave us, even if they don't want to, and that hurts.

[Long pause.]

So why do I...why does anyone want to be loved?

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[am_i_a_monster]

Can't those things be a part of love? Not wanting to lose someone, doing what you think is best for them, wanting to prove yourself to them? People can think they're doing all that to benefit the one they love. And forgiveness is a part of love too, right? So if someone is wrong by thinking that they're helping when they're hurting, you're supposed to forgive them.

[Another thing Hannibal told her. Her father loved her in the only way he could. And that she should love him back in the same way.]

Even when you find someone who means it, they can get sent back home or you could be sent back. And that hurts too.

[She's seen it in others and felt it herself when Hannibal was sent back. And yet she keeps reaching out to others, looking for connections.]

It just feels like it's all messed up, no matter what.

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[lifetothefullest]

Those thing might often accompany love, but that doesn't make them a part of it. As far as forgiveness goes, there are lines there; while it's admirable to understand and forgive mistakes, you don't owe someone forgiveness for anything, let alone any serious harm.

[This is one of those important points that he wants to get in there, though it's one of the most difficult to accept and believe. It's one he's had trouble with on both extremes.]

I can't tell you it isn't difficult when people leave here, but people leave in our own worlds too. Loss is a part of life, and if it weren't, nothing would have meaning.

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[am_i_a_monster]

Where's the meaning if everything ends? What's the point if it's just going to hurt someday?

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[lifetothefullest]

The experience is the point. Life doesn't last forever--you know that--but that doesn't make living meaningless; the same goes for the experiences that make up life itself.