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[am_i_a_monster]

I've been wondering about love lately. Not just romantic love, any kind of love. I was told that every love is different and unique. It seems like it doesn't matter - love always messes people up. Like love always end up hurting people in one way or another. People hurt the ones they're supposed to love or hurt themselves or hurt someone else. Or they leave us, even if they don't want to, and that hurts.

[Long pause.]

So why do I...why does anyone want to be loved?

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[restinglichface]

[Lup sees where you are going with that, gurl.]

Alright, so fuckin' fair. They are here with me. But I also spent twelve years trapped in a fuckin' magical umbrella, so I've done the whole alone without them thing too.

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[am_i_a_monster]

Trapped in an umbrella? Is that a metaphor? An umbrella of isolation?

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[restinglichface]

I wish. No, like, trapped in an actual vorebrella. It's a long story.

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[am_i_a_monster]

I was trapped once too. I was never alone though. I've never been alone.

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[restinglichface]

How were you trapped? Something a little more conventional?

And I guess that's good. Bein' alone that long sucks major ass. Wouldn't wish it on anyone.

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[am_i_a_monster]

I had a bad dad. He would have killed me if I said no or tried to leave him. After that I was in a hospital and later I had to hide in a basement.

Yeah, I don't think I could handle being alone.

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[restinglichface]

[It's sickening to hear. Lup's own parents had left her and her twin brother behind, abandoned them to run off without the burden of their children weighing them down. They'd been uncaring, but not aggressive or abusive.]

Sounds like quite a story. No one's hurting you here, are they? Got someone looking out for you? Living with good folks?

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[am_i_a_monster]

No, no one's hurt me here. I have Will and friends. I wish Hannibal was still here too.

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[restinglichface]

I'm sorry he left, but there's always the chance he'll pop back in with us. I've had a friend who has come in and out a few times.

Glad you're alright, though.