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[ He has no idea what the fuck is going on, but he knows he's never felt like this before. He's reflected on the things he regrets, of course, and he's been haunted by the choices he made in certain situations, but he carries on with the business of living well enough. He takes what he can get, what joy he can find, and he focuses on that.

So, what the fuck. ]

Anyone else feeling pretty shitty almost non-stop?

[ He has no shame in talking to people, why the hell not? He has nothing to hide in expressing his emotions, though that doesn't at all mean he's ready or willing to just confess all his sins to whoever the hell is listening right now. He's got some measure of control still. ]

I was a fucking asshole once. I get it. I know it.

But whatever this feeling is now - shit. It's this place, right? It's gotta be.

[ And he has this desperate, almost suffocating need to fix the terrible things he's done, but he can't. He's just paralyzed by this overwhelming feeling of being an irredeemable asshole. ]

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for some reason I thought knowing better would make it easier to bear.

Guess we were both really fucking wrong. Just ready to get the fuck out of here and it's only been a few weeks for me.

have you ever heard of anyone escaping to get somewhere else?

I haven't but I'm sure at least a few people have tried

assuming is one thing. I'd like to know if anyone has tried and how close they came to figuring out a way, if not succeeding.

I'm sure someone around here knows. Someone who's been here for a while.

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