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[inthewar]

[ He has no idea what the fuck is going on, but he knows he's never felt like this before. He's reflected on the things he regrets, of course, and he's been haunted by the choices he made in certain situations, but he carries on with the business of living well enough. He takes what he can get, what joy he can find, and he focuses on that.

So, what the fuck. ]

Anyone else feeling pretty shitty almost non-stop?

[ He has no shame in talking to people, why the hell not? He has nothing to hide in expressing his emotions, though that doesn't at all mean he's ready or willing to just confess all his sins to whoever the hell is listening right now. He's got some measure of control still. ]

I was a fucking asshole once. I get it. I know it.

But whatever this feeling is now - shit. It's this place, right? It's gotta be.

[ And he has this desperate, almost suffocating need to fix the terrible things he's done, but he can't. He's just paralyzed by this overwhelming feeling of being an irredeemable asshole. ]

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[inthewar]

[ He gets a kick out of it when she talks herself up. Firstly, because he agrees with her entirely, and secondly, he hopes she really does believe all that about herself because she is beautiful, smart, and funny, among many other things. ] You're the coolest person around here, honey. [ She must have a ton of people chasing after her, he thinks. Maybe not to settle down - who the fuck could, in a place like this - but just to be close to her, connected to her. ]

It means a lot to uh...kind of feel known. Understood. I know what you mean. [ So yes, he definitely gets it. ] And just so you know, you can kick my ass anytime. Please. [ He adds that last part with a grin. ]

[64th]

Now that you're here, you're a close second to me.

[ Cashmere keeps to herself a lot, because sometimes she's not sure she knows how to connect with someone in a normal way. maybe it's some of those same survival she relied on at home.

her expression brightens at the suggestion of kicking his ass. ] Really? Cause I could use someone to workout with and if I can't hold my own against someone your size, then I might as well just give up.

[inthewar]

Guess I am pretty cool.

[ He grins, and it's clear that he's at least coming out of the fog of pretty terrible, dark thoughts that had been weighing so heavy on him. ]

And yeah. Anytime. But if you bang me up real bad, promise to kiss and make it better?

[64th]

[ beautiful women make excellent distractions. ]

Why do I feel like you're going to purposely take a punch to the face at first opportunity?

[inthewar]

[ All that power over him now. ]

You really think I'd do that? [ He pretends to look offended for a moment, but the slight twinkle in his eyes gives that away. ] Shame I have to wait that long, but you know what they say about good things.

[64th]

[ she shrugs at him, and teases: ] You never know. A place like this, you could get smacked in the face and need my assistance at any time. I'm just a call or a text away.

[inthewar]

I'll put you on speed dial. [ He grins and lets out a breath. ] We should get that workout in soon, though. Counting on you to teach me a few things.

[64th]

[ Cashmere nods. ] Absolutely. How do you feel about knife tricks? Cause you look like you've got some good arms on you.

[inthewar]

Well, I've never done anything like what I saw you do, but I'm all in for learning. It's all about the right teacher, right?

Might as well put these arms to good use. [ He smirks a little, patting his own bicep and flexing it momentarily, in an exaggerated way, not taking himself too seriously at all. ]