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[inthewar]

[ He has no idea what the fuck is going on, but he knows he's never felt like this before. He's reflected on the things he regrets, of course, and he's been haunted by the choices he made in certain situations, but he carries on with the business of living well enough. He takes what he can get, what joy he can find, and he focuses on that.

So, what the fuck. ]

Anyone else feeling pretty shitty almost non-stop?

[ He has no shame in talking to people, why the hell not? He has nothing to hide in expressing his emotions, though that doesn't at all mean he's ready or willing to just confess all his sins to whoever the hell is listening right now. He's got some measure of control still. ]

I was a fucking asshole once. I get it. I know it.

But whatever this feeling is now - shit. It's this place, right? It's gotta be.

[ And he has this desperate, almost suffocating need to fix the terrible things he's done, but he can't. He's just paralyzed by this overwhelming feeling of being an irredeemable asshole. ]

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[inthewar]

[ He's the last person who'd ever condemn someone like her. Far as he can tell, she wasn't out there torturing people, being cruel for the pure, sick enjoyment of it. She manipulated people in a way, and he knows that makes you feel kind of dirty and tainted inside, but she's a step above a lot of people from his perspective. She seems to at least recognize what she did wrong, that's more than can be said for a lot of people. ]

You know, for what it's worth, honey, I think uh, just thinking that? Being able to look at what you did and know it wasn't maybe the right thing or the best thing, but it made you...you? That's saying something. My opinion's not worth much, I barely fucking know you, but just my two cents. That's the whole point of regret and shit, right? Being able to at least take something from it, learn something, let it shape you?

[roseofthetyrells]

[she definitely manipulated people. she tried to get Joffrey to rein in his more sadistic impulses and when that failed, she played along. she regrets the latter]

My grandmother's lessons shaped the person I am today. Though, since I've been here, I've found that I don't have to rely on them as much as I did in Westeros. People here are. . . different. Mostly. They respond better to honesty. But I'm still the person I was in Westeros, just a little. . . more open? I hope that you're able to find some of the same freedom here.