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[handofsilver]

I have a thing to ask; a thing that is not acceptable in my world, but it is part of my story and I think I must acknowledge it. I have noticed that other residents of Hadriel share half of my inclination, at least, and I must ask:

Is it possible for one man or woman to be attracted to both genders? I mean no offense. I admit that my first love - unrequited - was female. My wife was surely female! But there was a male...briefly...though he was naught but a monster seeking to ravage the world.

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[sonofacesius]

So your bisexual? You like both men and women? There's nothing wrong with that and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

If there was, my entire family would be in trouble. You like who you like.

[handofsilver]

Is that what it is called? We do not have a word for it on Arda.

My people usually love once in their life. My situation is...uncommon to say the least.

[sonofacesius]

And my dad's a bit of a slut. We don't always have to take after the people we're related too.

[handofsilver]

No, that is true. But I am not related to all Elves. Not truly. It is more...our way. We marry once, we enjoy several centuries of passion, we produce children and that is that. Even if we lose them, we are unlikely to wed again.

But my great-grandfather did and my father did not remain with my mother. Our line must be different.

[sonofacesius]

Maybe your line is different. Or maybe things change. Either way, don't be stuck because it's always been done a certain way. Be true to yourself

[handofsilver]

That is the problem. I do not know my heart anymore. I was attracted to a woman here, but that could have only been by chance.

[sonofacesius]

I think you might be over thinking things.

Have you ever just...oogled?

[handofsilver]

What does that mean?

[sonofacesius]

You know, watched people. Like while they're working out. Preferably half clothed.

[handofsilver]

I would never!

[sonofacesius]

It's a time honored tradition. And it might help you out. You can't know who you're attracted to if you don't, like, look at people.

There's nothing wrong in looking.

[handofsilver]

I...shouldn't.

My wife is dead. I should remain single. (But he is lonely. Much of the time, actually, and in a way his family members can't help.)

But it's rude.

[sonofacesius]

.....So your wife is dead and now you're punishing yourself by being lonely and never looking at another person again?

Just like she would want, right?

[handofsilver]

Elves do not remarry customarily. It follows that we do not look without a desire to be wed. We certainly do not do more than that; it would be considered unforgivable.

[sonofacesius]

Didn't you just tell me you did just that to the man....that monster that ravaged the world?

Or was that man going to marry you?

[handofsilver]

I was not married to him. I ignored my wife for a time while he enchanted me. I am to blame for her pain and her death, make no mistake. But Annatar turned out to be Sauron - one of my world's greatest foes.

No. He only wanted to use me. I was in the midst of him discarding me when I arrived in the cave.

[sonofacesius]

And now you feel it's wrong, since your wife is dead and your people only marry once, to try again.

I can't stop you if you insist on being miserable.

[handofsilver]

You do not understand: I tried. There was a lady present, not long after I arrived, that I attempted to court. She rejected me. (Just as Artanis had done.)

There have been four I cared for - two rejected me, one betrayed me and the last I betrayed. Do you think my record good?

[hasadoctorsnote]

As long as the person you're dating doesn't have an issue with it, you mean.

[sonofacesius]

[So busted]

Naturally! He's single.

[Ha. Ha. ha. ha. I think I understand Dad a little more now.]

[hasadoctorsnote]

So.

Will.

Any people here you think would be good for him to take a look at?

[He is. Totally glaring at the screen, yep.]

[sonofacesius]

Anyone but you?

[hasadoctorsnote]

...

Fine. If apparently everyone in the whole city is better to look at than me, why don't you just go 'oogle' them all? Go on, you have my permission.

[This is the equivalent of your boyfriend hanging up on you.]

[sonofacesius]

Nico, that's not what I meant.

[hasadoctorsnote]

[He spends about 2 minutes thinking to himself 'I'm not talking to him now because I'm mad at him' before he picks the device back up with a hmph.]

Well, that's what it sounded like.