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[handofsilver]

I have a thing to ask; a thing that is not acceptable in my world, but it is part of my story and I think I must acknowledge it. I have noticed that other residents of Hadriel share half of my inclination, at least, and I must ask:

Is it possible for one man or woman to be attracted to both genders? I mean no offense. I admit that my first love - unrequited - was female. My wife was surely female! But there was a male...briefly...though he was naught but a monster seeking to ravage the world.

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[swiftlet]

You couldn't have known.

[handofsilver]

I am still their Lord; their protector.

[swiftlet]

That doesn't make you perfect. You were tricked. It isn't your fault.

[handofsilver]

If I do not make it right, who will?

I have left my rings with those I trust. But they will suffer.

[swiftlet]

You've done all you can. Nohar can ask more than that.

[handofsilver]

My family is known for going above and beyond in their quests. We can never let something be.

[swiftlet]

There's wisdom in knowing when to rest, too.

[handofsilver]

Grandmother might be able to teach me that art. She is called Nerdanel the Wise.

[swiftlet]

Maybe you should speak with her, if you can.

[handofsilver]

Once I am Reborn, I will do so.

[swiftlet]

Good. I think. You sound like you've earned a rest.

[handofsilver]

I am in great need of one. I think that is why I feel so torn.

[swiftlet]

What's wrong with taking one?

[handofsilver]

It means my death. This life would end, I would leave my mistakes behind for others to fix.

[swiftlet]

You have this place. It may not be close to perfect or all that relaxing at times, but you have it.

[handofsilver]

I do. I want to see what becomes of it.

[swiftlet]

Maybe you could at least try to relax?

[handofsilver]

If I can manage that, it will be the first time I have been relaxed in what feels like an Age!

[swiftlet]

Then you're overdue.

[handofsilver]

I do not remember how it is done, honestly.

[swiftlet]

That depends on the person, I think.

[handofsilver]

The relaxing or the wooing?

[swiftlet]

Both. People like different things.

[handofsilver]

I'm trying to remember what worked on me.

I liked riding, but there are no horses here.

[swiftlet]

Maybe you could ask for one. Or else just start trying other things. A har might try a roon, or Cobweb was fond of his garden. Maybe you need a project like Seel, or simply something to distract you like a book.