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[writtendestiny]

[Poison spends a long while fidgeting with her phone, walking the borders of Carlisle's garden (but not going inside, not while he isn't there). Eventually, she sits down near one of the corners, cross-legged on a low, flat rock, and taps out a simple yet heavily weighted message.]

Do you believe in Fate?

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[writtendestiny]

I didn't want to think it was. I fought against it with all my might. But I was proven wrong. When I tried to stop what was happening I nearly killed the people I cared about.

[am_i_a_monster]

What was happening? If you don't mind me asking.

[writtendestiny]

No, it's fine.

I just found out that I didn't have any choice in where my life would end up. At least, that was how it felt. So I stopped playing my part in my story, and it all began to fall apart without me.

[am_i_a_monster]

I sort of know that feeling.  I never had any choices. And people made up stories about me; they thought they knew the role I played.

It must have felt like a lot of pressure when things fell apart without you.

[writtendestiny]

It was strange.
When I found out, it was as if my world fell apart. Like everything I thought was true was a lie. It isn't easy to realise your path is already laid out in front of you. I think it was more true for me than for most.

[am_i_a_monster]

My dad told me something once and then did very bad things that made my world fall apart.  He was a good dad until he wasn't.   That felt like a lie.  It made me feel like my path was to die.   

I survived and now I'm here.  Maybe you can have a different path now too, one that isn't decided yet.

[writtendestiny]

I'm happy with where my life is now. In fact, I'd very much like to get back to it. I'd already been tortured for more than two years in a place that wasn't my home before I ended up here.

[am_i_a_monster]

Why do you want to get back to your home, if you don't have choices there?

Freedom is amazing. Even with all the sucky things that happen here. And it's got to be better than the other place you were in.

[writtendestiny]

I didn't say I didn't have a choice, it only felt that way. I could choose to follow my destiny, or not. I chose to follow it.

[am_i_a_monster]

Not feeling like you have a choice can be a lot like not having a choice. It made me feel trapped, powerless.

We can have different choices here. What will you choose here?

[writtendestiny]

I don't know yet. Not dying is a nice start.

[am_i_a_monster]

It is. Finding out what you want can be nice too.

[writtendestiny]

I want to go home. I'm not sure what part of that I didn't make clear.

[am_i_a_monster]

I meant something you want that you can have. Something here.

[writtendestiny]

There was one thing I wanted, but it's gone now. All I want from this place is to survive. Same as the place before it.