Video 2

[myrealname]

[the video opens on Jane in the same overstuffed armchair she was sitting in during her first video, only this time instead of sprawled out on it, she's sitting up, legs crossed at the knee, foot pumping in the air, and a notebook in her lap with a pen poised over it for taking notes]

So, I've gotta know what you think of the gods? Which ones are your favorites, which ones do you hate, and why? It's for research.

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[myrealname]

No, no, I want to be fair.

If it's not, y'know, too personal? How so?

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[hasitsthorns]

My kind eat people.

[ What's sugar coating? ]

We don't have to, but- This guy from a place called Haven, which is where I was before Hadriel, experimented on me. Changed my physiology. He made it so the only thing I could eat was other people.

I had to, to survive. It made me a monster I never wanted to be. I ended up starving myself for months when I got here because I refused to hurt people more so, like- I get it. The gods. They're made the way that they are. To feed off emotion. They have to hurt people just to live and I understand that in a way I couldn't before. So to me, they're closer to kindred spirits than most people realize.

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[myrealname]

[she does not know what to make of that, so]

Oh.

How d'you, you know, deal with it now? [a pause] I guess that would make it easier to relate to the gods. With the whole eating people, eating emotions kind of thing.

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[hasitsthorns]

[ Yeah, it's

a fucking lot. ]

It's dealt with. Some people here were kind enough to cure me once we figured out what he had done to me. But for over a year there, I was... not in good shape.

Though you're right. It does help me relate and I don't pretend it doesn't make me biased as hell.

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[myrealname]

That's good, that people here could help you. That's. Not the kind of problem anyone should be stuck with. [she shakes her head] For a year. Jesus.

Hey, at least you know it and admit it. That's a lot more than most people can do.

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[hasitsthorns]

Yeah, Hope couldn't but- That's not his fault. He didn't know what was done to me and unless they know exactly... They can't do much, which. Y'know. Makes sense.

[ Even she didn't realize what had happened to her until Carlisle and others. ]

I guess. I just got tired of standing with the gods and people telling me I was wrong, so I tack on that disclaimer now.