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In the interest of having it completed some time this century, I'm taking over the project to create a guide document for new arrivals.
[And he's starting it from scratch, no thanks to Chris.]
If you can tear yourselves away from telling ghost stories long enough to reply, I'm interested to know what information you found most helpful when you first arrived, as well as what you would have liked to know sooner rather than later.
[And he's starting it from scratch, no thanks to Chris.]
If you can tear yourselves away from telling ghost stories long enough to reply, I'm interested to know what information you found most helpful when you first arrived, as well as what you would have liked to know sooner rather than later.
private voice.
private voice.
There isn't much else to do here - I've already searched through the library, and there isn't any real information to be gathered from what's there. There isn't even anything else to be done for the Kira case in the event I'm sent back - I already know what needs to be done.
private voice.
There's no need to sound defensive about it. I respect your choices, but you should own them more fully.
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I think it's important to have this information compiled and readily available. It's what I would have wanted when I first arrived.
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[Yes.]
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[He's L, after all, not a child who was raised to admire him from afar.]
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[Mello's idol worship game may be strong, but he isn't entirely blinded by it. He recognizes - maybe better than most who entered the Wammy's House system - that L is human too, and not infallible. He was killed, after all - defeated by Kira. His job as the world three best detectives is a difficult one.
But he is the original, not the copy. He doesn't need the yardstick for comparison that his successors, actual or potential, naturally would, and he likewise doesn't need the approval of any outside parties. His only measurement of success is whether he's able to close a case, and except for the last case, he always did. That's the only metric necessary for gauging how well he is able to perform his job.
It's not like that for Mello. Raised in the competitive environment, bred to seek external approval - and L's approval is the highest form of praise, and the most elusive.]
Not everything. But some things for you are bound to be easier than others.
private voice.
OK. Then I want to know what you think is easier for me. And what you think is harder... I'm very interested in your answer.
private voice.
[And that's very different from Mello; he's always had to work hard to prove himself, both as a potential successor and after he left the House, climbing his way up through the ranks of the criminal underworld.]
You've had resources at your disposal that most people would dream of ever being able to acquire. Having the right tools makes anything easier. As for what's more difficult - I don't really know.
[Mello may have been privileged to have met L as himself as a child, but it was only once, and only long enough for his mentor to impart those three stories Mello spoke of in the document recounting the LABB Murders that he wrote and left for Near to find after his death. He's been able to observe L's behavior here, of course, but they are all out of their element here, so what he's been able to collect isn't a normal set of data. What Mello knows of L is still mostly informed by reputation rather than firsthand knowledge.]
Maybe you can tell me.
private voice.
[He fully recognizes that between the two of them, it probably felt more like working to Mello, and more like playing to L. He chooses not to comment on the statement about resources, because while they are certainly useful, L only attributes a small part of his success to having them. That had better be the case, at least, because he is cut off from all but two of them here in Hadriel, in the form of a pair of successors.]
Maybe. But I don't know if this is the time or place.
private voice.
Well, you know where to find me if it ever becomes the right time or place.
[It's a sideways invitation, that if L is having difficulty with something - say, the idea of having been killed and brought back to life - Mello is available to help, in whatever way he can. Not that L would know it, but Mello knows what it's like to find himself unexpected alive again after experiencing his death.]
private voice.
[It's obvious and clear to both of them that he won't take advantage of it, might not even know how to. Because in truth, though it might be more than the sum of its parts, the parts say that it's exposing himself in a way that is terrifying when he is already vulnerable. Even behind the security and protection that Mello and Near are providing, L is certainly that.]