I'm Just A Soul Whose Intentions Are Good | Video| OTA

[ushahin]

[The first thing is that the phone has been propped between two branches on a tree in the orchard. Ushahin needs both hands for the task at hand. He's trying to peel a piece of fruit that has a bright purple skin on it. The problem is that if he tries to use his good hand to peel, his bad one can't hold onto it firmly enough, so it falls. If he tries to use his bad hand to peel while his good hand holds, his crippled fingers don't have enough force to break the skin. He'll be trying both methods alternately as he speaks in his usual soft tone.]

I was thinking tonight. A dangerous pastime, to be certain, but what I was thinking was this. How many of us who have been brought here are good? [He pauses, trying to get his nails under the skin, and he fails.]

I would ask how many of you here think you are a good person but-- [And there goes the fruit again, falling out of his bad left hand. He sighs and picks it back up.] --I don't think many of us have that high of a opinion of ourselves. I know I don't. [He's shattered too many minds and killed far too many people to think he's still got a soul anywhere close to being pure.]

So I will ask this. How many of you think those who are here with you are good people? Your family and friends, how many of them are good souls? [The fruit slips from his grasp once again.]

Damn. [He's given up trying to do this the nice, neat way. He ends the video by using his good hand for support, then biting down into the peel, and using his teeth to tear it partially off. It's not the most dignified method of being able to peel the fruit, but at this point, he's too stubborn to give up.]

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[ushahin]

[That gets Ushahin to laugh, a high-pitched sound that is completely at odds with his usual soft voice.]

I think both of our levels for judging others is rather low. But I do know there are those here who think I am good. You as well. So mayhaps we are doing something right.

[circumitus]

Maybe. Or maybe they're sorely lacking in judgment.

[She shrugs to herself.]

Guess it doesn't matter.

[ushahin]

Of course it matters. What are we made up of if not the opinion of ourselves and those we hold in high esteem?

[circumitus]

Maybe. But some people can be biased with their opinions.

[It's easy for Nick to hold her in high esteem because of their relationship. A lot of people who know Rey for her actions, however, would think differently.]

[ushahin]

Considering how low of an opinion everyone who has responded thus far to my question has, perhaps a bit of bias is a good thing.