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[edibles]

( Beth had meant to post this anonymously but that hadn't ended up working. Oops? )

It doesn't suck any less going through it more than once.
This place gets more fucked up every month.

( Someone's bitter. She also isn't sure she wants to know what the hell her double did after killing her )

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[unfollowing]

want to go get a drink?

[Since you're not anonymous at all and it's pretty obvious you're not okay.]

wolfie's downstairs if you'd rather stay in or whatever

[edibles]

( Fuck )

Let's go out.

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[unfollowing]

i'll be in the kitchen

[And so she is, heading downstairs after grabbing a jacket. She refills Wolfie's water bowl while she waits, scratching his ears when to pass the time. It's relaxing.]

[edibles]

( It's only a couple of minutes before Beth comes down, answering another few texts before she does )

Hey.

[unfollowing]

Come on. [Emily straightens and nods towards the door. She's not going to ask about the post just yet. Having also died twice, she gets where it comes from.] Let's get going. Maybe Delight will be there and we can ask her for good tequila.

[edibles]

They actually have good stuff here?

( Not that Beth really knows what'd be good and what wouldn't, but she appreciates Emily right now )

[unfollowing]

If you ask her for it, yeah. [She's got you, Beth. You're one of her people.

A little bit of walking in silence later, she glances over at Beth.] So are you okay or..."

[edibles]

( There's a small shrug at Emily's suggestion, but she keeps it in mind. Maybe one day she'll ask -- you've gotta get something good for all the shit, right? )

I don't know what okay is here.

( When you're not being attacked or scared or murdered #funtimes )

[unfollowing]

Well, not hating everything and not being scared to walk out the door is my baseline.

[Dark humor, y/n?]

[edibles]

Guess it's different each day.

( MAYBE )

[unfollowing]

Pretty much.

[ :| ]

I've died twice here. It sucks. Both times were because I was transformed and basically had to be put down.

[Not a good time. Her memory of the last few moments as herself are always full of the terror of knowing what she was becoming.]

[edibles]

Fuck.

( Beth knows about the second one but the first... Should she ask? Is that really a conversation route she wants to go down considering where it could lead to? )

I didn't transform into anything.

( Or she could just do it herself. Y'know )

I woke up to me killing me.

[unfollowing]

[That's a story for another day, Beth.]

That's really fucked up.

[Emily tries to picture it. A monster coming after you, only the monster is you.

So creepy. She shudders.]

But like, just so you know? Sometimes there are good events. That doesn't make this any less fucked up, but it's something to look forward to, I guess.

[edibles]

Do we want to look forward to something here? I know it means not being miserable all the time but isn't it like being okay with the crap too?

( Or maybe she's just being extra negative because dying is the worst )

[unfollowing]

[Emily shrugs. She can't blame Beth the negativity, not when her own mind goes someplace possibly worse.]

I mean, what else is there to look forward to. Going home?

[Where any of them could die, and Beth and Hannah absolutely do die?]

[edibles]

At least you can.

( Because hey, surprise, she's definitely dead )

Here's the only thing left.

[unfollowing]

I can, but I don't want to.

[Whoomp, there it is.]

I mean-- why would I want to go back to a world where you and Hannah aren't there?

[A world where, if she were to talk at all about Hadriel, she'd end up committed to a mental hospital?]

[edibles]

Because you'll get off the mountain and be able to do shit. You'll be safe.

( Though she didn't miss the past about her and Hannah. She appreciates it, Emily, that you do care -- that they're real friends now, though she'd still rather you could have a life and be awesome )

[unfollowing]

Actually, I don't know that for sure.

[Guess who's not from the end of the night.]

I don't know for sure if anyone makes it off the mountain.

[edibles]

You will.

( Because god, if Emily has anything going for her it's the fact that she's determined and won't quit )

You'll make it.

[unfollowing]

I didn't where Jess came from, when she was here.

[Dun dun duuunn. Even though it means a lot that Beth thinks that, facts are facts.]

I mean, I'll fucking try. Like, I won't go down without a fight, but those things-- wendigoes. They're terrifying.

[edibles]

Maybe it'll be different when you get out. Like with all that's fucking happened here why wouldn't it be?

( But yeah, she knows how terrifying they are, and she doesn't envy Emily having to face them again )

[unfollowing]

I guess.

[Wouldn't that be something, if she could do magic at home? She could get everyone off the mountain safely. She could rescue Josh from Hannah-- from the wendigo.]

If I do go back, I'm going to do what I can to survive.

[She wants to say it's for the sake of her friends here, but that seems a bit dramatic. She will, however, keep Beth's faith in her in mind. It means a lot to her.]

[edibles]

I don't have any doubts about that.

( If only there was a way for her to change her fate too, but she was dead not just for them but Beth remembered it too. She couldn't change that )

You sometimes make stubborn be a good thing.

[unfollowing]

[Emily is thinking the same thing, actually. Sure, they can talk about what Emily might do when she goes back, but they both know what becomes of Beth. The image of Beth's frozen head falling from that dummy in the mines... Emily still has nightmares about it. Even if she goes back to a world where she and the others survive, the Washingtons won't get to be happy, ever. Beth and Hannah and Josh will be dead or worse, and their parents will have lost their children either way.]

Did I tell you what Glacius told me? He said there might be a way for all of us to go to a world where we're okay. There could be a way, with the right technology. [She pauses for a moment.] I hope that's true.