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hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
puzzlingly) wrote in hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)
「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
perma video.
Your... sands?
「A desert, most likely. Probably not his, though.」
Did it ever make you feel better?
perma text
people from the city parts dont do the same stuff we do. got our own culture with death
depended on what happened. when it happened. how
[It never helped how she felt about watching her crew fall. It was the only thing to keep her from breaking down after she lost Cherri.]
but sometimes it did. sometimes it made easier to sleep at night
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「Or it should at any rate.
It's not that easy though, if it was he wouldn't be asking these things.」
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i know it didnt work for everyone
sometimes we take comfort in the tradition
sometimes you just got to talk about it
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He reads the words, he can relate to them.」
Back home, they used to tell us that the dead would wait for us in the Field of Reeds, that we had to be good to get there, everybody knew that. It usually felt wrong to be sad at all because those who had departed had reached eternal happiness. Heh, it used to work when I was a child, now...
「He sighs a little bitterly, he doesn't like criticising that in which he had believed for so long, but this place has put his own beliefs in doubt. That much is true. May his Gods forgive him.」
It doesn't matter.
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just cause they found peace doesnt make it any less painful
[Being left behind was the hardest part. Their peace meant little when the people left alive couldn't find any.]
what made you stop believing?
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did you lose someone here?
is that whats making it hard?
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「What a loaded question.」
You could say so.
「Unfortunately, he's not so prone to share with some stranger he has just begun talking to, he's not that type.」
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[Girl can't say she's surprised by the gentle brush-off. People here certainly are more open than she's used to, but this is a still a land of strangers.]
sorry for what youre dealing with
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「It's not worth it, he brought it upon himself.」
May I ask your name?
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[Simple as that. Girl doesn't mind being a sympathetic ear, but she's not about to press into someone else's sadness.]
i dont have one
people are given names where im from
and i never landed on one
[She figures the explanation is better to give up front rather then leave them with just her lack of a name. It's surprised people enough that she's learned it isn't normal here.]
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What do you call yourself?
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nothing
people give me nicknames if it bugs them but ive never had anything that i called myself
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Doesn't that bother you instead?
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i dont need a name to know who i am
and the nicknames are cause someones feeling fond. nothing wrong with that
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「What to call them, however...? Maybe he could follow that train of thought anyway, albeit it would be hard.」
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never really thought of it as anything but just how it is
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That's something less to worry about, I guess.
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