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hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
puzzlingly) wrote in hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)
「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
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And sometimes find whatever took them away from you and attempt to pound it into the dust. Alas, not usually an applicable solution here.
perma video.
「Several years ago, he would get behind the idea, but now, he probably knows better.」
Even against death?
Text- Who knows what might pop out if he does anything else
[A dead baby brother- avenged even as he fell. A dead father- not avenged at all.
The House of Finwe has a talent for dying, Fingon has to conclude. Himself definitely included. Is it a comfort, he wonders, to know he hasn't lost his Maedhros to death as well? It doesn't feel like one, certainly.]
That is difficult to say. There are so few things that can kill my kind, so when one of us dies we nearly always know the reason for it.
[A few minutes later, another text arrives]
We sing, sometimes. Lamentations for our dead. Recollections of their deeds.
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You keep them in your thoughts then. 「He muses to himself, mostly. It's good to know.」 I have to ask — does your kind believe in the life after death?
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[And to be honest, it's not something the elves are particularly good at. Men often have the strength to move on from griefs that would kill one of the Eldar.]
There is little mystery in death for us. Our fëar -our spirits- last so long as the world does. When our dead flee their bodies, most go to the halls of the Doomsman, there to await his judgment.
Many are eventually reembodied. I knew some who were- friends of my grandparents, for the most part.
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Reembodied? Like reincarnation?
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[There had been a number of beliefs about the afterlife among the Men who had come to Beleriand, if Fingon remembered correctly. A pity his cousin Finrod, who spoke often with the Edains' wisewomen and elders, wasn't here; he would have had clearer insight on the matter.]
But in a literal sense, yes. The spirit is granted a new body, one much like the old. It remembers the flesh it knew, and longs to return to it.
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Pretty much what you said.
「Yes, thank you. But the fact that he says he's met others who have gone through it, that he'd recognize them even after their reeimbodiment, brings a sudden wave of peace to Atem's heart. It is true. It all is true. He should not be doubting his beliefs, but in this place, it's not that easy.」
It seems our world aren't really that different.
「He says with a little smile.」
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Perhaps not. Sometimes I've wondered if all our worlds have more in common than we might have thought.
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「Cloud god like creatures worshipped by little turtle people who didn't even have games to entertain themselves? Maybe!」
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「Things considered, Atem's gods are the best thing ever.」
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[The Elves and the Valar were long-time neighbors...until they weren't. It's a complicated relationship.]
The Valar are far from unfeeling, and they usually mean well. But they can struggle to understand the heart or desires of an Incarnate. Who could expect the Earth or the Sea to understand one of the Children fully, with all our innate contradictions?
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「He can't really go around saying he's bffs with his gods but, his wold is different.」
Their concerns and responsibilities are not ours.