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⁽ᴾʰᵃʳᵃᵒʰ⁾ ▽☥ℰℳ ([personal profile] puzzlingly) wrote in [community profile] hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am

duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)

It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.

When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.


How do you deal with loss?

When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.

What is that helps you to move on?

If they do at all.

This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?

He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.



private text: Kaiba Seto

Mokuba is gone.

But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.
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[personal profile] hasitsthorns 2018-08-23 05:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey, what can I say? It's a pastime at this point.

But I'll try.
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[personal profile] hasitsthorns 2018-08-29 10:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ Don't start here on your card game nonsense, she's too competitive for that. ]

I sing and play guitar sometimes. Get high. Uh.

Damn, maybe I do need other hobbies.
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[personal profile] hasitsthorns 2018-08-31 11:54 am (UTC)(link)
[ She'd be worse than Kaiba, I'm telling you. ]

I guess that's fair. Not a whole lot to do around this place after a while. You just kind of... settle.
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[personal profile] hasitsthorns 2018-09-06 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ Wow. Savage. ]

I don't know. Some people seem to do fine just going on as they've always known.
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[personal profile] hasitsthorns 2018-09-12 10:07 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, this place can still get wild but it's not... the same intensity as Haven. Not by a long shot.

[ The Yao Corporation was relentless, if nothing else. They finally started spacing things out after a month or so but... ]
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[personal profile] hasitsthorns 2018-09-20 08:27 am (UTC)(link)
A little bit, yeah. Until more of them started showing up and balanced things out.

[ It feels like that's what happened. It was just Hope and Fear at the start. Rose appeared around the time Sorrow showed up so that was fun but... It was also why he was her favorite. ]
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[personal profile] hasitsthorns 2018-09-26 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know that I deserve "better", necessarily, but... thanks.