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hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
puzzlingly) wrote in hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)
「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
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It sounds like Yugi decided to be the better person. [She comments, without passing judgement too heavily. It would have been easy for someone in that situation to become bitter.]
But what about you? How did you become their friend?
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That... is a little more complicated.
「Why you do dis.
He usually doesn't mind sharing this, but it's usually with people he knows a tad better. He's feeling exposed in some way, and the feeling is not something he's used to, he also doesn't want to be rude... Maybe...」
「private.」
「Maybe this will help.」
He used to be my soul's host.
「Yeahhhh.... that's it.」
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Then, she arches her brows at him and briefly purses her lips.]
Your soul? Were you a ghost?
private video.
「It's not bit deal when you're in Hadriel, right?」
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She squints slightly at him, the small muscles at the corners of her eyes pinching up.]
What kind of ghost?
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What do you mean?
「Are there kinds?」
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Did he know you were there?
[Of course there are kinds.]
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「It's not as easy as it sounds, there was something about some magical items that allowed two souls share a body, but why get into the unimportant details, right?」
Yugi helped me regain something I had lost, and... eventually the time for me to depart arrived. But I guess I got stuck here instead.
「He might have spent a long time as a ghost but he's not quite an expert about them, so he's a little curious.」
What kind of ghost does that make me?
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I suppose that makes you the good kind.
[It's the best answer he could have given, really. She doesn't expect her opinion to matter one way or another, but it's always good to know who here might be trusted.]
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Do you have experience with that? Ghosts, I mean.
「Just like people, he supposes, good and bad and the random odd one.」
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Magic is everywhere where I'm from, but it's usually bad news for humans.
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[Her nose wrinkles, almost imperceptibly as she says the word. It's been a long time since she held any active malice towards the Phaerie people, but she still doesn't like them very much.]
Liars and tricksters who torment humans because they see us as lesser beings.
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「It's just a logical assumption, but maybe there might be a little more.」
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They look at us like we look at... farm animals. We're like livestock to them. Most of them, anyway.
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May I ask why?
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[There's a bite to her voice that she doesn't mean, and her lips press together in a thin line with a faint tension in her jaw.]
Do you wonder what a bug thinks of you before you step on it? Same thing. They're not like us.
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「That's a good reminder that he should do what other people keep telling him to do, to mind his own fucking business. It's not like he can do anything anyway, right?」