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hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
puzzlingly) wrote in hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)
「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
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It's not a terrible skill to have anyway. It's been a long time since I practiced archery, but it can be even a little fun.
「He knows they cannot afford that sort of entertainment, that's the point of learning is to actually kill rather than hit just some targets, but it could be fun anyway!」
But that's not all you have, right?
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Yeah, and I can feel myself getting better. Like I've got actual muscles in my arms now. And it is fun.
[she wouldn't use it against anyone but Caedra. or the Null, if they came back]
Not all I have? What d'you mean?
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Can you protect yourself in a shorter range?
「That's what he means.」
Pepper spray, maybe? I heard those were a thing.
「Okay he might be joking a little there, but it wouldn't be a terrible idea!」
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Not. . . really? I guess I should look into that, huh?
Do they have that at the armory?
[no, it wouldn't, but she's not sure how effective it would be against a demon]
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Nope. Ask Rage maybe, I'm sure she'd have a field day with that.
「It would only make it angrier! But just getting to laugh at the face it'd make would make it all worth it.」
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I'd have to do something for her, right? I've never done the whole "ask the gods for stuff" thing before.
[not gonna lie, she would love to be able to laugh in Caedra's face. she would love it a lot]
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Yeah, maybe she'll ask you to piss someone off. You can try with me, if you want. I don't mind, mostly because, she needs the power too.
「He's weird like that. And He would love to piss the demon off! Are they are far too gone?」
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I used to be really good at pissing people off. I've kind of been trying to avoid that here. Not on purpose, exactly, it's just that it's easier to try to get along with people.
[probably? pissing Caedra off is like pissing a lion off]
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You know I'm joking right? But, either way, it might be wise to have a close range weapon with you as well.
「A knife to the gut was still a good thing against a corporeal demon that could bleed.」
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Yeah? Okay. I guess I'll check the armory, see what I can find. Not a sword, that would take way too much training, but a knife would probably work.
[she's glad that she doesn't have to go to the gods after all. for the most part, she prefers to ignore their presence as much as possible]
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「It goes with a wink. Ah! If she only knew!」
how did I miss this?
[she'd prefer a gun. even a plain revolver would be better than nothing, but she has no idea how to get one. she does, however, know how to use it]
it's ok!
Do you know any of the elves? Maglor, Curufin?
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No, I don't. I've seen them around, of course, but I never got to know 'em. Why?
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Let's just say they are very good at forging and crating stuff. Curufin helped me fix a pair of blades that originally were part of a monster so I could use them for battle. They are also very nice.
「In case she needs a friend or so.」
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Really? They sound like useful friends to have. As well as nice. [she chuckles] We could use a little more nice around here.
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「The people who is brought by the Door often is too wrapped around their own problems to try to be kind to others, not their fault, really. He could certainly love it if there were more nice people too. It's hard to put up stuff at times anyway.」
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[and their friendship and Laura's feelings for her were. . . complicated. but Laura's lack of friends here can be traced back to her having problems trusting anyone with the full truth of who she was]
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「It's not quantity, it's quality.」
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[she feels like she can trust Donna with the full truth now, that five minutes in Hadriel would be enough to make Donna believe in what Laura has to say about why she was the way she was]
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You want her to come to this place?
「It's not like he toyed with the idea of having someone from his world in this place, but he often felt conflicted about it, guilty even. When Kaiba and Mokuba got here, sure he was happy, of course, but now his whole life resumed to keeping them safe. Not that it was very different from home, if he thought about it... but it was easier then.」
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[she'd have to keep her safe from Caedra. once the demon realized how important Donna is to Laura, she'd have a target painted on her back. Laura's gotten a lot better at archery under Cecily's tutoring and if all else failed, she'd give her ring to Donna to keep her safe]
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「He'd be a hypocrite if he judged her.」
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[even though she's increasingly convinced that no one else from her world will ever show up]
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Donna, right? I'll keep in mind, just in case.
「Nope, there is no stop-caring button, unfortunately, or fortunately...」
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