hadriel | duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)

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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)

「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.

When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」

How do you deal with loss?

When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」

What is that helps you to move on?

「If they do at all.

This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?

He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」

「private text: Kaiba Seto」

Mokuba is gone.

「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」

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「He can see how much she's struggling, and while it's not new to him, he's seen a lot of people go through the same now, it makes him look at her in deep sympathy.」

I know it's hard to be here but, it's not always so bad you know? I'm not so sure about how true it is but I've heard that what happens in Hadriel stays in Hadriel. People has returned home at some point, so it's not impossible. People is trying to get more information on the Door that brought us here, for all we know, you may be able to go home and see your friends and family very soon.

「Only he cannot realize she may not be grieving for being here all alone, that there is more going on.」

I'm not... trying to tell you to put up a smile and let it go, no... But, you're not alone here.

「That much he can offer.」

[she's trying to keep herself as positive as possible, but it's hard when you think that you're already dead back home]

I hope so. I miss--everyone. I'd even put up with Brainy acting like a jerk over how much smarter he is than the rest of us if it meant that I got to go home.

[she remembers heat and she remembers pain. next thing she knew, she was here.

she bites her lip, then tries to smile] I'll. I'll try to remember that.

「It probably wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. Not from his perspective.」

Wanna tell me more about them?

「He can listen if she wants.」

[but there's the inevitable crash when she can't keep up the illusion anymore]

Are you sure? There's a lot of them. And my boyfriend, he's not even on the team.

[they weren't called the Legion for nothing]

Oh, there is a boyfriend, huh?

「He teases, no don't worry he's not I interested. Not like that anyway.」

I don't mind. Whatever makes you comfortable.

Yes. I miss him like crazy.

[she gets the teasing. and it makes her smile a little, to think about Jo]

All right, but don't say I didn't warn you.

I'm sorry about that. It's okay to miss him.

「As long as she doesn't start talking to him when he's not there, unlike certain someone.」

Do your worst.

It is?

[...she might. she misses everyone from back home that much]

He's--he's unlike anyone I've met in my entire life. Bold, brash, funny, brave. And handsome. Mother tried introducing me to boys who were "suitable," and none of them were anything like Jo. The first moment I saw him, I knew he was something special. And as we got to know each other, I couldn't help. . . falling for him.

Yeah. Why wouldn't it be?

「A little hypocrite from his part, given his post and the talk he's been having, but truly, is it that bad?」

Suitable? In what way?

「The word makes him lift an eyebrow and pull a little sarcastic tone. No one should dictate who to fall in love with.」

I don't know. It's just, most people I've met seem content enough with their lives here.

[and she's not. she's likely a thousand years in the past and who knows how far away from Earth]

Oh, you know. Sons of other ambassadors or representatives. Well-behaved, respectful, earnest. Boring. I wanted a little excitement in life. And love.

[her mother. her mother would dictate who she should associate with and who she should fall in love with]

Who have you been talking to?!

「Oh dear, that comes up with a little more flare than it should, his voice, mocking — he's met so many people who just absolutely hate this place. He, as he might be realizing, might be one of them.」

Are you royalty or something?

「He wouldn't be surprised in the slightest at this point.」

Just people, here and there. Maybe content isn't the right word for it. Resigned might be better.

[count her in as one who absolutely hates this place. the technology is primitive at best, there's nothing to do, she misses her friends and her boyfriend like crazy, and she wants to go home. even though she's not sure if she's alive or dead back there]

Descended from it. Bgztl abolished the monarchy about three hundred years ago, but mother can trace our lineage back about a thousand years.

Hmm... Yeah, that sounds more like it. 「Not that it makes it better at all.」

Why did they abolish it? 「–– okay that's something he's been wondering for a while now, maybe she can explain that a little better than, hey democracy is better (he's got some doubts about that...)」

And that's not right. No one should simply be resigned to living their life.

[she shrugs] They'd largely been figureheads for about a hundred years before then. They were allowed to keep their wealth, but the old ancestral homes were turned into museums. As for why? Most historians agree that the populace got tired of paying taxes for the upkeep of people who weren't really doing anything.

It happens, here specially.

「Damn that... is exactly what happened to him. The fact that his home was turned into a huge museum, hurts a little, but it's been a long time for him so...」

And you think the ones in charge actually do things now?

「Can't see the difference.」

But I don't want to be resigned to living.

[it's mostly strange to Tinya, to think that her ancestors were royalty. she's been to the museums that were her ancestors' homes and been impressed with the grandeur, but couldn't imagine herself living there]

Well, the entire planet is now ruled by Bgztlgov. We have a Prime Minister and Parliament that people vote on. People love to complain, but it's mostly that, complaining. And my mom still has a lot of influence and so did her parents.

「People voting on who would rule them (to call it in a way) might still be a little odd to hear, so much has changed in nothing but a blink to him. Some things were easier to get used to, others, not so much. The point of remembering his past was to know where to head to, but having remained behind, it sometimes feels like if he was dragging something heavy with him. It's fine, he just seems a little thoughtful about it than anything else, there is truly no point to get sad about it.」

As long as that works. 「And he gives a little shrug.」

[she shrugs back] It seems to? And Mother still has her power and position. So did her parents before her.

If they could see me, going with the Legion to fight and carrying on with a Rimborian, they'd fade into nothing.

[but as much as she fights it, she can't be a super-hero forever. and once she retires, she'll probably turn to the same sort of work her mother does. that's assuming she's not dead already, which she isn't quite sure about]

A Rimborian?

Yes. Jo--my boyfriend--is from Rimbor. Rimbor's considered a "disadvantaged world" [she makes the air quotes]. What government it has is blatantly corrupt, it's poor, it's crowded, and it's violent.

Jo joined up with the Emerald Dragons--that's a gang--at five. The only way he got out was getting powers and joining the Workforce.

How scandalous.

「He smirks a little, obviously teasing her a little.」

Like Romeo and Juliet.

「Or something.」

It was. I thought my mother was going to have a stroke when I told her I was dating him.

[she smirks back]

With a happier ending, I hope.

That bad? Was she okay though?

「Well, technically, Romeo and Juliet did get their happy ending... kind of. It's the rest who didn't. But he gets what she means.」

You mean, and they lived happily ever after? Isn't that a little cliché?

「That's not how life works, sadly.」

No. She thinks that Jo is trash and that I'm a fool for wasting my time on him.

[she's already afraid that she's dead, she doesn't want to even consider the possibility that Jo could be dead as well]

A little, but sometimes things do work out for the best.

[she'd like to believe it's true in their case]

She'll change her mind.

「Someday.」

Oh no, don't get me wrong, I think I may like cliches more than I'd like to admit. Happy endings it's what this place needs. I hope you get yours.

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