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hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
puzzlingly) wrote in hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)
「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
video; private
Welp, he's probably blushing now. No, of course he is. So he's helping her just by being her friend? There certainly is something melancholic about that, he can't help but think of Yugi and how he adamantly thought that his wish had become true when he put the the Millennium Puzzle together, his wish of having friends. But the truth is that Atem never did anything about that, it was all Yugi; somehow this doesn't feel as different.
It is definitely more than he was ever expecting to hear from her. It's easy to see.」
I... Sorry...
「What, as a friend, could he do then? Be there, of course, just be there. He didn't have to do anything grandiose or say anything groundbreaking.」
video; private
What is it you are apologizing for? It is not necessary -- you are enough. Should that change, you will be the first to be made aware.
video; private
「To think that just a few years ago he would have never, ever, doubted any of his friends.
Shadi had tried to make him doubt of Jounochi's friendship and not even he succeeded.A reminder is not unwelcome, but it does make him wonder again how much this place had been affecting him. Was it really the place, though? He's not sure but he needs to change that.」Thank you, Ravine.
「He's enough...」
video; private
Still, I am grateful.
[No matter what happens, or where she goes in the end, that fact will never change.]