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hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
puzzlingly) wrote in hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)
「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
Private Text: Stage 1 Denial
[Kaiba has been on Law's boat for 3 days and doesn't know what's been happening on the islands. Clearly Atem has just misplaced his brother. He sends out a text to Mokuba right after sending this.]
Private Video: Stage 1 Denial
He changes to video instead.」
He's gone from the contact list, Kaiba. That means he's gone from Hadriel.
Private Video
His tone is eerily calm.]
Based on a contact list? Did you even bother to look?
Private Video
Kaiba... 「
Honey, please」 Of course I did. I looked everywhere I could. His robot is gone too.Private Video
[Atem being wrong is still the far better
and more likelyoption.]Private Video
「He cannot let him go on believing that his brother is around when he's not, it's not a good delusion to have, he knows it better than most.」
He might be back home, away from this madness. Back with you.
Private Video: Hey look Anger
Mokuba isn't necessarily gone, he could be back home, he could be on any of the islands still. Either way, one thing is clear.]
You failed at the one thing I asked you to do.
Private Video: internally sobbing
I am sorry.
「Who knows, maybe he could have avoided it in some way.」
I will keep looking.
Private Video: Sorry ;_;
[It's not phrased as a request.
He's not sure what he expects Atem to find by continuing to look. It's what he would do if he were on the island. But he's not. He left to try to find a way to get everyone home himself. Instead his brother is gone the second he turned his back. There were only two people available to blame; Atem and himself.]
Private Video
Who knows, maybe his brother will come back and he'll find him and will tell Kaiba some good news. Even if after a while one has to realize that the good news are the opposite.」
What if he is gone?
Private Video
At least his voice is still entirely steady.]
Then it's even more important that I find the door.
Private Video
He should probably leave it alone, but since when has Atem ever lied to him, even by omission? When has he ever pacified him for the sake of it? He's not going to start now.」
No one told you how this works, did they?
「He should have if he had known how worried Kaiba would get if Mokuba disappeared. He should have known.」
You do that, but don't do not lose your head over it. Mokuba is fine, if he's back home, he won't even remember this place and no time would have passed for him at all.
「He's about to hang up on him, is he not? It's fine, he said what he had to say, it was up to Kaiba to believe him or not, for his own sake.」
I'll let you know if anything changes.
「He had said if after all.」
Private Video
I didn't ask for your explanations!
[He needed to find some control, and so started barking orders.]
Yes you will!
[An order given, hanging up is now a sign of power and not retreat. He ends the connection and throws the phone against the wall. He doesn't care if it breaks.]