hadriel | text

[ oh great that clears it up. ]

it was harder to live with than I thought it would be. i thought it would be easier.

whyY?????/ how who why

[He might be terrible at showing it, but he...genuinely wants to help.]

it's a long story. home stuff.

[ and thanks to Sorrow, he's gotta get details. ]

our government makes kids fight to the death. my district trained me and I volunteered to compete. I killed other kids. I was older and stronger but I had to. i had to win.

! !! ! !!!!!!!

[KIDS! Kids are innocent. Or they're supposed to be. Krieg's morals might be warped beyond understanding, but he knows one thing: forcing kids to kill one another is bad.]

iDDDDD cut theRE THROATS OU ttt for kiLLLLLingl ; innnnnicent kITTENs

[ she gets what he means. it was awful. it is awful. what choice did any of them have but to kill or be killed? ]

I wish someone would.

sometimes i'm ok with it because I was trying to survive but sometimes i remember their families or the blood on my hands or they're in my dreams and I don't think it ever gets better. it's been 11 years they'd have their own kids now. but they don't because of me.

[Don't mess this up.

He waits. He waits. He pauses. He thinks, as much as it aches and hurts to.]

wwwh; at chOICE is thereEE

[ honestly, she mostly appreciates that he's listening and letting her get some of it off her chest. her heart still feels heavy with guilt. ]

I can't change the past, and I can't go home.

maybe it would be worse if I was ok with it. it was a terrible thing. I can be sad about a terrible thing i was part of. right?

saD = good!!!!!!!

meNASSS youu URS TILL IN THERE SOmewhhERE!!!

[ he found exactly the right thing to say. she feels shitty, but she can accept that it's because she's still the same girl she used to be, somewhere deep down. ]

You think so? I like that.

Thank you.