[It was actually about as honest a question as he ever asks. Unfortunately, the root of it does lie in "Mello loses so much that he must know if saying that is supposed to work or not". It hasn't made him feel better, is all.
[Winning is satisfying, when the opponent is good. Near can't deny that taking down Kira had felt good, but sometimes one loses things in the process of winning the game as a whole. And depending on what those things are, they can take some of the edge off the satisfaction.]
It's wasteful to say it, then.
[The harsh tone doesn't bother him. It never does. He actually does care about what Mello feels on some level, in some fashion. But why say so?]
[No sense in giving Near any more ammunition than he already has. It was a mistake to say anything, and just because Near hasn't used it against him now doesn't mean he won't.]
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[Winning is satisfying, when the opponent is good. Near can't deny that taking down Kira had felt good, but sometimes one loses things in the process of winning the game as a whole. And depending on what those things are, they can take some of the edge off the satisfaction.]
It's wasteful to say it, then.
[The harsh tone doesn't bother him. It never does. He actually does care about what Mello feels on some level, in some fashion. But why say so?]
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[No sense in giving Near any more ammunition than he already has. It was a mistake to say anything, and just because Near hasn't used it against him now doesn't mean he won't.]