one. text.

[sedula]

[The Hadriel network isn't exactly Facebook, but it's all Sam's got, so it will have to do.]

#justhadrielthings

How many of you have died here?

How did you deal with it?

Asking for a friend.

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[text -- private]

[sedula]

Har dee har.

[None of them are dealing, but Sam feels somehow obligated to do a better job of actually pulling herself together instead of just pretending to do so, at least make an attempt at it. Thus the post.]

Thanks, Chris. I appreciate it. You've been here the longest out of us, right?

[text -- private]

[thechoiceisyours]

Yeah, it was a year last month. Apparently I got here the second month anyone was showing up in this place.

[So there aren't a whole lot of people who've been here longer. Really, it's a wonder he's only died the one time in a year.]

[text -- private]

[sedula]

I guess you must have seen a lot, huh.

[She sort of wants to ask - What's the worst thing you've seen here? Then again, she's not entirely sure she wants to know.]

[text -- private]

[thechoiceisyours]

You could say that, I guess.

[You could definitely say that. But haven't they all seen a lot, whether they've been here a year or a day?

And he hesitates a moment before sending the next text, because he feels he should probably be clear--]

I died here a few months ago. It sucks.

[So he knows how she feels, at least partially. It was really different circumstances, and it's not like these things can be compared, but he understands.]

[text -- private]

[sedula]

[Somehow, reading that hurts more than Sam expected. Chris died back on the mountain, and Sam didn't have time to grieve for him, or Mike, or the rest of their friends who didn't make it out alive - everyone except her and Emily. And it was fine, because they were all alive here, even the twins. Almost like that nightmare never happened.

Does death hurt any less if it isn't forever? Sam can't really say that's true.]

Yeah, it does. I'm sorry, Chris. I don't know if you already knew, but I did too.

[text -- private]

[thechoiceisyours]

Yeah, I got filled in on everything that happened. I'm sorry too.

[Even though he found dying to be one of the less traumatic things he's been through here or at home, that doesn't make it a fun experience to go through. It also doesn't mean everyone deals with things the same way.]