hadriel | four; text

[She pulls back just enough to give him a confused look.]

Why would I be mad? That wasn't you. I knew it wasn't you.

He tried really hard to make you mad.

[and, more importantly:]

The murder thing wasn't a lie. That really happened.

I don't care about that asshole.

[Jade pauses for a second. Maybe it should be a bigger deal that Connor helped murder someone but it's hard for her to make it a big deal when he's done so much for her.]

O-okay. But... He acted like it was no big deal. You don't feel like that about it.

You're right. I don't feel like that about it.

[he takes a deep, shaking breath]

It wasn't supposed to happen. I wasn't even supposed to be there.

Oh God...[She wraps her arms more tightly around him, trying to be a comforting presence.] Shit. I can't believe that happened to you.

I should've gone to the cops - or stopped them, or.

[She finally pulls out of the hug, but only to lead him to her bed so he can sit down. She's not sure it's a good idea for him to have this conversation standing up.]

Hey, hey, it's okay. You made a mistake...

[yeah, this is probably much better]

A mistake that's just going to keep getting worse.

[Once they're both sitting down she wraps one arm around him, tucking herself against his side.]

Does it have to?

I don't know.

[theres a beat, while he considers]

Yes, probably.

I dunno if it'll make you feel better, but you're not the only person who's made mistakes like that.

What do you mean by that?

[Jade hesitates, taking a deep breath. She's not sure she should be telling Connor about her past back home. He might not even believe her, most people don't, but it only seems right that he knows her biggest secret now that she knows his.]

I... I made one mistake and everything in my life has been really shitty since then.

[at least that stops him from feeling sorry for himself - his attention and worry is instantly focused on jade]

What happened?

[She pauses again, turning to face him.]

You swear you'll believe me? You won't think I'm crazy?

[he looks at her and nods, holding her gaze]

I won't think you're crazy.

I brought my mom back to life.

[She says it quickly, the words almost slurring into one word. She drops her gaze to her own lap when she's done, waiting for Connor's reaction, bracing herself for him to call her crazy or worse.]

[it's shocking, but he doesn't think she's crazy. i mean, he literally just came back from the dead so it's obviously something within the real of possibility.]

Was she happy about it?

[he's kind of afraid the answer is no.]

[It's not the reaction she usually gets and it throws her enough that she can't be anything but honest.]

No. She fucking hated me.

That isn't your fault. You thought you were doing the right thing.

But it wasn't the right thing and it messed everything up. You know what she thought after? She thought I was like, a demon or possessed or some shit. And maybe I am. I'm definitely not a good person. A good person wouldn't do that to her mom. You don't understand how much she hated me and hated being alive again.

You're not a demon. Or bad person.

[he tries to project stability and confidence as he says it, but he barely has enough for himself much less to give to jade. he really is trying, though.]

You just wanted your mom back.

[The attempt is appreciated even if Jade doesn't look very reassured by his words. She doesn't return to leaning against him, instead curling in on herself, looking small and scared to tell him the worst part of her story.]

... She wasn't back for very long.

How did she die?

[he's almost afraid to ask, but it sounds like jade could really use the opportunity to get it off her chest]

Which time?

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